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Arashi Meme

2012-01-23T17:07:00.000+07:00

1) Who would you get caught in bed with?
Eh? LOL xD I think it would be Sho-chan or even Matsujun, coz yeah, their bodies are yummy... :p

2) Who would you most likely get into a fight with?
Mostly I think it's J. Though I don't want to fight with anyone at all.

3) Who do you think is hot?
All five of them are hot in their own ways but for me definitely it's my ichiban, Sho xD his cute expression while losing games in VS Arashi and his hot sexy dance while performing T.A.B.O.O LOL LOL

4) Who will you most likely marry?
It's definitely SHO! He has that husband-like figure the most!

5) Who would you go on a date with?
Aiba-chan, for sure it'll be loads of fun, I think :)

6) Who is most like you?
I think it's Nino..is because he's very much just like me; even though I'm not a game otaku like him. But my sarcastic personality yet my sharp tongue definitely similar to him~~

7) Who could you be enemies with?
Like i said earlier, i don't wanna fight with anyone...especially with Arashi

8) Who would be your hang out/shopping buddy?
I think it would be J, since he is the most fashionable in Arashi...

9) Who will you have a one night stand with?
Riida of course~~

10) Who will get along with your parents/family?
I really think it would be Aiba-chan due his friendly personality

11) Who would you fall in love with?
Sho-kun desu, since he's my ichiban :)

12) Who would you want to be your brother?
Sho or J, they have an image of being caring and protective respectively

13) How would you confess your love for them?
I'll just have to be able to confess to him directly, and just shout that i like/love him

14) Who do you think has the sexiest body?
Sho-chan :3

15) Who do you think will give the best sex ever?
Either J or Sho (again) lol xD *like I'm biased with this pair*

16) Situation: you saw the most gorgeous dress that you want to buy for a function but the price explodes right out of your budget, so you go up to one of the boys and ask to borrow some of his money. His reaction would be…
Aiba: Hai. Take this.
MatsuJun: How much do you need?
Nino: Muri~ That's too expensive!
Ohno: Nani??!!
Sho: Ehh??!!

17) What nicknames would you call the boys?
Aiba - Aibacchi
MatsuJun - J
Nino - Neen
Ohno - O-chan
Sho - Sho-kun

18) Who is most likely to settle in a quiet town beside the beach and find pleasure sitting and watching the sun rise and set?
It's definitely Riida :)

19) Who is most likely to be spotted at the buffet table?
Aiba-chan :)

20) Who would you like to go on an exotic vacation in Italy with?
J of course :)

21) Who do you want to be the godfather of your kids (with any of the boys)?
I hope it's Sho-chan :D

Happy Lunar New Year 2012

2012-01-23T16:55:00.000+07:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR 2012

It's officially the year of dragon :)

Menurut peruntungan, katanya shio ayam air alias shio gue bakal mengalami banyak peruntungan di tahun naga air ini. Ya gue sih sebenernya gak gitu percaya sama hal-hal yang kayak gini. Tapi sejauh ramalannya bagus ya gua amini dan percaya saja :)

Katanya, pemilik shio ayam harus lebih banyak membangun jaringan atau koneksi dan bergaul dengan teman-teman baru. Kemudian ada baiknya para ayam harus belajar mengambil keputusan dengan bijaksana, terutama yang berkaitan dengan masa depan. Ada baiknya mencoba untuk berbisnis. Terus juga katanya semua kerja keras tahun 2011 akan membuahkan hasil di tahun 2012. AMINNN :))

Kalau dipikir bener juga lho ini ramalan. Secara tahun ini gua akan mulai kuliah, bertemu lagi dengan temen-temen baru :) Terus katanya sebaiknya mencoba berbisnis. Ini juga salah satu yang sedang gua pikirkan, yaitu rencana untuk berinvestasi sehabis UN. Yah semoga rencana gue untuk berinvestasi tahun ini bisa kesampaian deh yaaa AMIN AMIN AMIN :) Dan yang gak kalah penting lulus SMA dengan nilai yang gemilang. AMINNNN :)

That's Why I Love Them

2012-01-23T16:42:00.000+07:00

To be honest, Arashi’s music really has a lot of parts where we cannot develop freely according to our own will, but to be content with ourselves even under many different restrictions is also our style. “It’s precisely because it’s us that we can find pleasure in what we do” kind of feeling. That’s probably very important too. If even we can’t find the joy in what we do, then how can the fans do the same?
- Ninomiya Kazunari (Arashigoto Photobook; 10.000 Word Interview)

Source : say-it-again.livejournal.com

Source: say-it-again.livejournal.com

“Being looked down upon by people who are around my age or younger than me while working at the same time, i think this is really interesting. It would give me the motivation to keep going. Rather than trying to make those who dislike us to “support” us, I think being rejected by them actually make me feel more comfortable.”

—	(Ninomiya Kazunari - Jounetsu Tairiku 2007.05.06) This is professionalism, this is rationality. That’s why we shouldn’t even bother with the “superiority”.

EKSPEDISI

2012-01-06T23:01:00.001+07:00

Hari ini gua belajar banyak dari misa kelasnya Bimasena & Drupadi tentang EKSPEDISI (Ekspektasi dan Realisasi). Dari segi dekorasi, misa kelas kali ini memang cukup simpel. Tapi two thumbs up banget buat visualisasinya! Pesannya dapet banget dengan jalan cerita yang unik dan mengena~ GREAT JOB GUYS!

Jadi gua sadar kalo kita hidup di dunia ini pasti penuh dengan ekspektasi. Definisi ekspektasi sendiri artinya lebih dari sekedar harapan saja. Di dalam ekspektasi ada kegigihan, ada usaha untuk merealisasikan apa yang kita cita-citakan.

Ekspektasi dari harapan, cita-cita dan impian juga perjuangan keras merealisasikannya :

1. TIDAK ADA KEBETULAN dalam hidup ini, yang ada ialah PENYELENGGARAAN ILAHI

Sering gak ngeliat teman kita yang ulangannya dapat 9 atau 10 dan dia cuma bilang "ah, gua hoki doang kok..." Gak ada tuh yang namanya hoki! Atau juga tentang pertemuan cowok dan cewek yang ketemunya gak diduga-duga seperti yang sering kita lihat di drama-drama Jepang atau Korea, dan kemudian mereka berakhir menjadi sepasang kekasih yang tak terpisahkan. Mungkin kadang kita menganggap semua hal yang tidak terduga, tidak disangka-sangka, yang kita alami, adalah suatu kebetulan atau keberuntungan semata. Gak ada kebetulan ataupun yang namanya keberuntungan di dunia ini. Semua peristiwa yang terjadi di dalam hidup kita, baik itu yang baik maupun buruk, BUKAN SUATU KEBETULAN. Semua itu udah diatur sama Tuhan dan hal ini merupakan penyelenggaraan Ilahi.

2. Tidak ada berkat atau rahmat, yang ada ialah kemungkinan-kemungkinan yang harus kita pilih

Pernah kan kita bingung banget menentukan sesuatu misalnya saja jurusan kuliah yang pilihannya amit2 banyaknya. Dari sekian pilihan yang tersedia, cobalah untuk yakin dan teguh, pilih satu pilihan, jalani dan hadapi pilihan itu, dan kemudian dengan sendirinya akan mendatangkan berkat dan rahmat buat kita :)

3. Hanya ORANG BIASA yang mengatakan bahwa ada SESUATU YANG TIDAK MUNGKIN

Pasti sudah kenal dengan quotes ini : "Impossible means I'm possible." Percayalah, TIDAK ADA SESUATU YANG TIDAK MUNGKIN. Oleh karena itu dikatakan hanya ORANG BIASA yang bilang kalo ada sesuatu YANG TIDAK MUNGKIN. Jadilah orang yang LUAR BIASA yang PERCAYA bahwa SEGALA SESUATU MUNGKIN!

Postcard #7

2012-01-02T13:59:00.000+07:00

From Kajo - Finland (FI - 1137041)

I don't have anything to comment about because this is an ad-card :)

Postcard #6

2012-01-02T13:53:00.001+07:00

From Biene75 - Germany (DE - 967312)

I wish I could live there for the rest of my life :')

Postcard #5

2012-01-02T13:46:00.000+07:00

From Thea2 - Netherlands (NL - 697856)

Actually the sender is the wife of the first sender :) (see postcard #1). Coincindence, eh?

And this Hoorn city is awesome. I would like to visit here, someday

Postcard #4

2012-01-02T13:43:00.001+07:00

From ShivaShanti - Switzerland (CH-83592)

Switzerland night-view. So beautiful, isn't it?

Postcard #3

2012-01-02T13:39:00.001+07:00

From hef - Germany (DE - 962391)

This is the third postcard that I received :) The palace is so beautiful, isn't it?

A Little Wish

2012-01-01T23:38:00.005+07:00

I wish I got a New Year postcard from Sho-chan with his dragon picture in it. *seems LEGIT LOL XD*

Taken from Twitter @/soranarumi

Happy New Year 2012 ^^

2012-01-01T18:45:00.002+07:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012!

Akemashite omedetou :) Yoi kotoshi o :D

I really hope that this year will be better than 2011. And plus.. let's prove what's going to happen in December 21st, 2012 ;) I don't make any resolutions, by the way. I just want to keep it going... kinda.. let it flow. Yeah, just let it flow. This year maybe the last new year I could celebrate with my high school friends. We're all going to different paths in life. Some will stay in Indonesia and some will go abroad to continue their study. What about me? Yeah,*unfortunately* I still stay in this country to continue my study majoring in accounting. I hope life in university goes well ^^

About the yesterdays's New Year Eve, I didn't do anything in particular. Just stayed at home and watching 62nd Kouhaku Uta Gassen on NHK and it was AWESOME. GREAT. AMAZING. There were some parts that I loved from this year's Kouhaku.

First, Arashi and Mickey part. They danced and sang "Wish Upon A Star" and "It's A Small World" in Japanese version :) What made funny is that my dad commented on Arashi members :) He said that MatsuJun is the most charismatic yet handsome member LOL xD But in the other hand, he said Aiba is the most silly member *so true dad!* He didn't make any comments for Sho-kun and Riida, I don't know why.

Second, Ashita o Utao part when Arashi sang "Furusato" (Hometown) and Sho playing the resurrected piano. It was so amazing yet beautiful. I was touched when Ohno sang the first line of the song :')) I almost broke into teary eyes while listening the song. The song and the lyrics was just so beautiful :) And through the VTR, they sang the song with Tohoku earthquake and tsunami victims. As for Sho's piano performance, now I LOVE HIS SIDE PROFILE :) I also love his intense looks towards other members while playing the piano.

Some caps :

OMG SHO ❤ AND OTHER MEMBERS LOOK LEGIT! ❤

Sho-kun intense look ASFAKSFJASDLOMGGG ❤❤❤❤❤

Nino while singing Meikyuu Love Song

Third, Arashi's performance. They performed Kouhaku Special Medley with Meikyuu Love Song and Hatenai Sora in it :) This performance was AMAZING :) ARASHI OWNED THE STAGE! The illuminated Arashi at the end of the Meikyuu performance was totally awesome, I have to say. They played with kinect, actually. Here's the caps :

Oh God, why the world is beautiful ? :''')))

They walked and kicked the block :)

As the Hatenai Sora started, the screen showed some butterflies ^^ and when they started singing, the screen turned into blue sky with cloud on it. I imagined that Arashi sang in heaven LOL xD. Below is the picture, look at the blue screen :

Another silly things that I noticed was that Sho was always standing side-by-side with Jun from the start until the end Kouhaku #yes I am a Sakumoto shipper ❤ :)) The other one was when Inoue Mao and Jun talked while MC-ing :') Jun only payed attention too much on Mao, btw :) My HanaDan couple has returned ^^

Overall, this year's Kouhaku was great :) All the performers did their best ^^ Congratulations for Red Team who won this battle. It surprised me when Inoue Mao-san was really touched and she cried with pride because of the winning :) Hope next year Kouhaku will be as great as 2011 Kouhaku!

All pictures credit to : Arashindo :)

Postcard #2

2011-12-29T23:31:00.001+07:00

From CatMom - U.S.A (US - 1170641)

The postcard depict one of the ship collection in Museu Maritim in Spain

Postcard #1

2011-12-29T23:27:00.001+07:00

Hmm.. I think I'm gonna make a new tag for this blog. It's #postcrossing :) Since postcard-collecting has been my new hobby for this past 6 months, I'm gonna blog (all) postcards that I've received for all over the world :)

This is my first postcard. It was come from Netherlands :)

From Ouwe - Netherlands (NL - 684751)

62nd NHK Kouhaku Uta Gassen

2011-12-29T18:00:00.005+07:00

NHK revealing the order list for 62nd NHK Kouhaku Uta Gassen. Hope my father wouldn't be so annoying on the day because I hijacked the TV channel to NHK :)) So, here is the performance order (source: official site)

Host: Arashi and Inoue Mao
Official Supporter: AKB48

**First Half**
1　Hamasaki Ayumi 「progress」 (13)
2　NYC 「100% Yuuki NYC」 (3)
3　Angela Aki 「One Family」 (6)
4　flumpool 「Akashi」(3)
5　AKB48 「Kohaku 2011 AKB48 Special MIX ~Ganbarou Nihon!~」 (4)
♪  Ashita o Utao~ Kids Special~ :
*Ashida Mana , Suzuki Fuku 「Maru Maru Mori Mori!」 (New)*
*Ashida Mana , Suzuki Fuku, Disney Friends, Kids from Tohoku 「Disney Special Medley」 ♪
6　FUNKY MONKEY BABYS 「Soredemo Shinjiteru」 (3)
7　Nishino Kana 「Tatoe Donna ni」 (2)
8　AAA 「CALL」 (2)
9　Kawanaka Miyuki 「Nirinso」 (24)
10　Hirai Ken 「Itoshiki Hibi yo」 (7)
11　Fuji Ayako 「Ayako no Okuni Jiman dayo ~Ganbarona Tohoku!! Kohaku Special~」 (17)
12　Hosokawa Takashi 「Nebuta」 (35)
13　Mizuki Nana 「POP MASTER」 (3)
14　Porno Graffitti 「One More Time」 (10)
15　Inawashirokos 「I love you & I need you Fukushima」 (New)
16　Godai Natsuko 「Kinmokusei」 (18)
17　L’Arc～en～Ciel 「CHASE」 (5)
18　Mizumori Kaori 「Shounai Heiya Kazeno Naka」 (9)
19　Mori Shinichi 「Minato Machi Blues」 (44)
20　Shiina Ringo 「Carnation – Akagumi nara Dare Demo」 (New)
♪ Ashita o Utao Special ~Happy Birthday 3.11~ :
     *Natsukawa Rimi(6), Akikawa Masafumi (4) 「Asu to Iu Hi ga」* ♪

**Second Half**
21　KARA 「KARA 2011 Special Medley」 (New)
22　Tokunaga Hideaki 「Jidai」 (6)
23　Perfume 「Laser Beam」 (4)
24　TOKIO 「Miageta Ryusei」 (18)
25　Shoujo Jidai 「GENIE」 (New)
26　Gou Hiromi 「Go Smile Japan」 (24)
27　aiko 「Koi no Superball」 (10)
28　Yuzu 「Hey Wa」 (4)
29　Koda Kumi 「Ai wo Tomenaide」 (7)
30　Tohoshinki 「Why？（Keep Your Head Down）」 (3)
♪   Ashita o Utao ~Nippon no Arashi 「Furusato」:
       *Arashi, Tohoku victims 「Furusato」 ♪
31　Hirahara Ayaka 「Ohisama ~Taisetsu na Anata e」 (8)
32　Sen Masao 「Kita Guni no Haru」 (16)
♪     Ashita o Utao~ Sekai kara Messeji:
       *Hasebe Makoto, Jackie Chen, Lady Gaga ♪
33　Kobayashi Sachiko 「Onna no Sakaba」 (33)
34　Nishida Toshiyuki 「Ano Machi ni Umarete」（4）
35　ayaka 「Minna Sora no Shita」 (5)
36　Nagabuchi Tsuyoshi 「Hitotsu」 (3)
37　Wada Akiko 「Ano Kane wo Narasu no wa Anata」 (35)
38　Arashi 「2011 Kohaku Special Medley」 (3)
39　Ikimonogakari 「Aruite Ikou」 (4)
40　Itsuki Hiroshi 「Furusato」 (41)
41　Matsuda Seiko (16), Kanda Sayaka (New) 「Ue wo Muite Arukou」
42　Hikawa Kiyoshi 「Jounetsu no Mariachi」 (12)
43　Sakamoto Fuyumi 「Yozakura Oshichi」 (23)
44　Fukuyama Masaharu 「Kazoku ni Narou yo」 (4)
45　Matsutouya Yumi 「(Minna no) Haru yo, Koi」 (2)
46　EXILE 「Rising Sun」 (7)
47　Tendou Yoshimi 「Ai Sansan」 (16)
48　Kitajima Saburou 「Kaerokana」 (48)
49　Ishikawa Sayuri 「Tsugaru Kaikyo Fuyugeshiki」 (34)
50　SMAP 「SMAP AID Kohaku SP」 (19)

conclusion : I'M TOO EXCITED FOR KOUHAKU~~ *tensionhigh*

What surprises me is that Inoue Mao will be the MC and Arashi being the MC for the second time, consecutively. *HanaDan couple ruled :D* More importantly, I don't understand why there is Korean artist on Kouhaku since this is "JAPAN MUSIC BATTLE" *no-offense please*. I also looking forward for Ashida Mana & Suzuki Fuku. They are too cute to resist xD

And the one thing I wait for this year's Kouhaku is : Sakurai Sho will play piano on Furusato. OMG! Sho-kun's promise has come true to return to piano^^ Can't wait for him to play the piano again~ It's so ADORABLE yet amazing.

Remember this, who killed many people??? ♥♥♥♥

(source : nade-gata@ LJ, littlequeenrhapsody.blogspot.com )

Sho + Piano on Kouhaku

Oh God, why the world is so BEAUTIFUL? :')) ♥

Awkward Moment #1

2011-12-21T21:56:00.003+07:00

That awkward moment...

When your friends talked about some particular holiday plans IN FRONT YOU, but they DIDN'T INCLUDE YOU.

@eugeniasepthariani

Out of Expectation

2011-12-21T18:16:00.004+07:00

Today I got my report card. It was all out of my expectations, though. I was kinda shocked this morning, looking on the scores. It was way betterrrr than what I've already expected before. Like for Biology, I got 88 O.O I think it would be lower than 85. As for Math and Physics I got 91 *OMG I bet something went wrong here LOL untuk pertama kalinya Mat gua nyampe 9* Overall the average is about 91,23 *the highest score ever in my history and I'm not trying to boast here, ftw* Thanks God for that :'))

Intinya, gua cukup puas dengan hasil rapot kali ini. Terbukti, semester ini gua ngejalanin ulangan dan tugas-tugas dengan santai tanpa beban kayak di pantai dan gak perlu nangis-nangis mewek gara2 nilai gak nyampe 90 atau gak straight 100 *wtf banget sama orang kayak gini~* dan hasilnya ternyata memuaskan. Banget. Yang aneh dari gua adalah, justru ketika gua berjuang mati-matian buat suatu ulangan, hasilnya malah gak maksimal. Sebaliknya, kalau gua santai2 aja nyiapinnya, hasilnya malah oke *aneh ya gua*

Cuma kesian aja sama temen gua yang *ini sumpah gua ngeliat dia nangis kejer beneran sampe heboh di kelas* abis dapet ulangan, terus ngeliat nilainya jelek dan HARUS REMED, langsung nangis, mewek di tempat. Lebay bener sih lo! Gak cuma itu temen gua yang satu ini juga nangis waktu tau dia gak bisa ngerjain 1 dari 4 soal yang dikasih. Wtf~ Cuman 1 nomor men yang salah gak akan membuat lo remed hah??!! Konyol bener kan kalau tiap ulangan, terus lo ga bisa (ga bisa di sini artinya bukan gagal total, melainkan CUMAN SALAH SATU yang membuat lo gagal dapet straight 100), lo nangis, marah, ngedumel sepanjang hari. Oh God, come on, hidup lo kan gak cuman buat nilai doang. Nilai cuman angka gitu. Kesian bener emang sama orang-orang yang perfeksionisnya kayak gini. Lo tuh nyusahin hidup lo sendiri tau gak, woy, orang-orang perfeksionis!

OK.. Let's end that "perfectionist" topic... Cape ngomonginnya, di Sanur banyak sekali kasus seperti itu...

I also have finished MY PAPER :) That 41 pages for chapter 3 and 4 pages for chapter 4 was finished :D I don't care about the revision, all I have to do is collect it to my teacher and hard work really paid-off xD

Well, yeah... Like last year's Christmas, I'm not gonna go anywhere. I'm gonna stay at home, watching a lot of dramas :)) And probably I'm gonna study for the preparation of the upcoming National Exam :D

Keberagaman yang Dibingkai Kebhinekaan

2011-12-18T22:37:00.003+07:00

Berikut adalah tulisan saya dan kawan saya, Felicia Janice Irfan mengenai seminar bertajuk "Pancasila dan Pluralisme" yang diselenggarakan di sekolah saya, SMA Santa Ursula Jakarta, 13 Desember 2011 lalu.

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Apa yang terlintas di pikiran Anda setelah mendengar kata “pluralisme”? Kemajemukan? Keanekaragaman? Ya, semua benar. Secara spesifik, pluralisme adalah sebuah kondisi di mana kelompok minoritas secara penuh ikut berpartisipasi dalam hidup bermasyarakat dan bernegara bersama dengan kelompok mayoritas, masyarakat dimana perbedaan-perbedaan keyakinan dan budaya dihargai.

Kita hidup di tengah masyarakat Indonesia yang plural. Kita beruntung punya prinsip pluralitas yang dibingkai dalam "Bhinneka Tunggal Ika". Pluralisme di negeri kita ini punya basis historis, filosofis, dan sosiologis. Indonesia adalah negara yang mempunyai tingkat pluralitas yang sangat tinggi yang ditandai dengan keanekaragaman agama, yang berpotensi menimbulkan konflik. Dewasa ini, seringkali kita melihat banyak kasus diskriminasi terhadap etnis tertentu dan juga kasus-kasus yang sama sekali tidak menunjukkan adanya toleransi akan kemajemukan bangsa Indonesia, misalnya peristiwa pembakaran Gereja di Temanggung, kasus GKI Yasmin di Bogor, dan lain-lain.

Bertolak dari kenyataan akan kurangnya penghargaan terhadap keberagaman inilah, pada hari Selasa, 13 Desember 2011, diadakan seminar bertajuk “Pancasila dan Pluralisme“. Seminar yang diselenggarakan oleh kelas XI dan XII IPS SMA Santa Ursula ini mengundang tiga orang narasumber yang Adapun ketiga narasumber tersebut adalah Bapak Basuki “Ahok” Tjahja Purnama, Bapak Zuhairi Misrawi dan Maria Restu Hapsari. Seminar dipandu secara apik dan komunikatif oleh Rosiana Silalahi, presenter kondang yang juga merupakan alumni SMA Santa Ursula. Secara umum, seminar yang juga mengundang beberapa SMA lain di Jakarta ini berjalan lancar, walaupun acara dimulai sedikit terlambat dari jadwal.

Seminar diawali oleh materi dari Bapak Basuki “Ahok” Tjahja Purnama, yang saat ini menjabat sebagai anggota Komisi II DPR RI. Jika selama ini warga Tionghoa memilih wirausaha sebagai jalan hidupnya dan seolah “alergi” dan tidak mau ikut campur dalam dunia politik, sejak reformasi, tak jarang politisi muda Tionghoa menunjukkan kemampuannya. Salah satunya adalah Pak Ahok ini, yang sukses menduduki jabatan sebagai bupati Tionghoa pertama di Kabupaten Belitung Timur yang mayoritas penduduknya beragama Islam.

Pada Pemilu 2004 Pak Ahok mencalonkan diri sebagai anggota legislatif dan terpilih menjadi anggota DPRD Kabupaten Belitung Timur periode 2004-2009. Tidak berhenti disitu, pada Pemilihan Kepala Daerah (Pilkada) Kabupaten Belitung Timur tahun 2005, perolehan suara 37.13 % mengantarkan Pak Ahok menjadi Bupati Belitung Timur definitive pertama saat itu.

Dalam seminar ini, beliau mengemukakan mengenai 4 pilar dalam bernegara, yakni Pancasila, UUD 1945, NKRI, Bhinneka Tunggal Ika. Menurut Pak Ahok, Generasi muda harus percaya bahwa 4 pilar bukanlah wacana dan mereka juga harus mengerti bahwa 4 pilar layak diperjuangkan. Generasi muda harus mampu terjun langsung ke masyarakat. Apabila kita meyakini dan mau memperjuangkan 4 pilar tersebut, maka kita dapat mendirikan sebuah “rumah” yang utuh di atas tanah Indonesia ini.

Presiden Amerika ke-16 Abraham Lincoln pernah mengatakan bahwa apabila kita ingin mengetahui karakter sejati seseorang, beri dia kekuasaan. Kata-kata inilah yang membuat Pak Ahok senantiasa memperjuangkan kepentingan rakyat melalui kekuasaannya yang didapatkannya. Selama 7 bulan menjabat sebagai anggota DPRD, Pak Ahok banyak melakukan terobosan, Antara lain ia membebaskan biaya pendidikan dan biaya kesehatan bagi warganya. Beliau juga menjadikan Belitung Timur sebagai satu-satunya kabupaten di Indonesia yang mempunyai jaminan kesehatan bagi masyarakat sebagai hasil kerjasama pemerintah daerah yang dipimpin Pak Ahok dengan PT Askes. Bahkan ia memotong anggaran perjalan dinasnya hanya menjadi seperlima agar bisa membantu masyarakat kecil.

Pak Ahok juga secara periodik melaporkan seluruh penghasilannya beserta pajak yang harus dibayarkannya kepada masyarakat secara transparan dan bersih. Tak hanya itu, beliau juga memberikan nomor handphonenya sehingga apabila masyarakat membutuhkan bantuannya, ia akan dengan sigap membantu. Dalam pandangannya, masyarakat zaman sekarang tidak percaya lagi dengan para pejabat yang berkuasa. Masyarakat beranggapan bahwa siapapun pejabatnya sama saja dan mereka menjadi bersikap apatis terhadap penyelenggaraan pemerintahan. Hal ini mendorong Pak Ahok ingin melakukan suatu pelayanan terhadap rakyat agar rakyat tidak lagi sengsara.

Lebih lanjut menurut Pak Ahok, sebuah negara bisa runtuh karena banyak pejabatnya yang melakukan suap. Oleh karenanya kita harus konsisten dalam mempertahankan apa yang kita yakini dan harus mempercayai 4 pilar negara Indonesia tersebut. Tantangan yang dialami Indonesia saat ini adalah kurangnya individu yang mempunyai karakter yang kuat yang meyakini kebhinekaan. Kita harus mampu menjaga kebhinnekaan Indonesia karena Indonesia tidak dibentuk berdasarkan SARA yang merupakan penghalang kemajuan bangsa.

Narasumber kedua adalah Zuhairi Misrawi atau yang akrab disapa Gus Mis. Beliau adalah Ketua Moderate Muslim Society (MMS), intelektual muda Nadhlatul Ulama (NU), tergabung dalam Lingkar Muda Indonesia (LMI) dan juga aktif sebagai jurnalis. Gus Mis dalam seminar berdurasi 3,5 jam ini menerangkan mengenai kebhinnekaan yang berbasis keagamaan. Menurutnya, sebagai kaum mayoritas di Indonesia, yakni sebagai penganut Muslim, tanggung jawabnya sangat besar karena harus mengayomi dan melindungi kaum minoritas. Kalau terjadi sesuatu, yang harus bertanggung jawab adalah kaum mayoritas.

Indonesia adalah negara majemuk, baik dari segi etnis, bahasa, budaya dan agama. Tidak ada seorang pun yang dapat mengubah kemajemukan Indonesia. Maka dari itu harus kita syukuri sebagai potensi. Indonesia adalah satu-satunya negara di mana masyarakatnya dapat hidup dengan nyaman hidup dalam kemajemukan dan memiliki potensi toleransi yang sangat tinggi. Hal seperti ini tidak dapat kita temukan di negeri tetangga macam Malaysia, ataupun Timur Tengah. Di Malaysia, contohnya, seseorang pindah agama dari Islam ke Kristen akan dipenjara seumur hidup.

Gus Mis berpendapat bahwa orang yang beragama adalah suatu anugerah, apapun agamanya itu. Adapun contoh toleransi keberagamaan lainnya adalah Masjid Istiqlal, di mana arsiteknya ternyata adalah orang Katolik dan juga potret khas di Indonesia di mana kita sering menemukan gereja dan masjid letaknya berdekatan. Menurut Gus Mis, ada 5 makna Bhinneka Tunggal Ika :

1. Mengakui kemajemukan

2. Menghargai perbedaan setiap makhluk Tuhan

3. Membangun sikap gotong-royong

4. Mengukuhkan persatuan kebangsaan

5. Menumbuhkan kemanusiaan

Kelima poin ini sangat dibutuhkan bagi masa depan Indonesia yang menghargai keberagaman.

Seperti yang kita ketahui bersama, akhir-akhir ini ancaman radikalisme dari sejumlah kelompok fanatik tertentu dan intoleransi makin eskalatif di Indonesia. Ancaman semacam ini patut kita waspadai karena dapat memecah-belah persatuan bangsa. Adapun tantangan radikalisme (paham yang menebarkan kekerasan atas dasar agama) antara lain adalah :

1. Restriksi atau penolakan status dan akses yang sama terhadap kelompok lain

2. Pandangan yang menganggap kelompok lain lebih rendah (de-humanization)

3. Mengabaikan hak sipil, politik dan ekonomi (opresi)

4. Penyerangan dan melakukan pembunuhan

5. Pengorganisasian pembunuhan massal

6. Genosida

Gus Mis juga mengungkapkan pandangannya tentang indikator toleransi di suatu negara :

1. Hidup berdampingan secara damai (co-existence)

2. Keterbukaan perihal pentingnya kelompok lain (awareness)

3. Pengenalan terhadap kelompok lain sembari melakukan dialog (mutual learning)

4. Pemahaman atas kelompok lain (understanding)

5. Pemahaman, pengakuan dan memberikan kontribusi pada kelompok lain (respect)

6. Penghargaan pada persamaan dan perbedaan, serta merayakan kemajemukan yang tampak dalam Bhinneka Tunggal Ika (value and celebration)

Agama Islam menyikapi pluralisme dengan meyakini bahwa setiap manusia adalah khalifah. Khalifah adalah pemimpin atau makhluk yang agung. Oleh karena itu jangan pernah merasa inferior karena setiap dari kita adalah pemimpin. Selain itu, membangun saling pengertian, menebarkan kasih sayang, mengutamakan perdamaian dan membangun dialog antar umat beragama adalah poin-poin yang penting dalam mewujudkan pluralisme. Konflik-konflik yang ada muncul karena tidak adanya pengertian antara sesama warga negara. Adapun hal terpenting dalam pandangan Islam adalah pentingnya membangun dialog antar umat beragama. Dahulu, Nabi Muhammad pernah mengajak kaum Kristen Nazrod untuk melakukan kebaktian di masjid pada hari Minggu. Hal ini membuktikan bahwa sudah sejak lama Islam telah mempercayai bahwa dialog antarumat beragama sangat penting.

Dalam menghadapi radikalisme, sebaiknya kita memberikan arti kasih, sentuh hati mereka, ajak mereka berdialog dan coba untuk menerima kekurangannya. Penganut Islam fanatik yang kadang bertindak anarkis terjadi karena dua faktor. Yang pertama adalah faktor pendidikan yang rendah dan faktor kedua adalah faktor ekonomi yakni kemiskinan. Kasus-kasus pembakaran Gereja, fatwa yang mengharamkan sesuatu dan lain-lain tentu menunjukkan kurangnya penghargaan terhadap keberagamaan agama. Di Indonesia, beribadah bersifat konstitusional. Sudah selayaknya kita memberikan mereka hak untuk beribadah sesuai dengan apa yang diyakininya.

Narasumber terakhir adalah Maria Restu Hapsari. Beliau adalah perempuan Katolik pertama yang menjabat sebagai Ketua Presidium Perhimpunan Mahasiswa Katolik Republik Indonesia (PMKRI) pada tahun 2004 dan sekarang aktif sebagai kader Partai Demokrasi Indonesia Perjuangan (PDIP). Beliau juga aktif dalam Kerasulan Awam (Kerawam) KAJ. Dalam seminar ini, Ibu Restu mengajak para siswa untuk mengevaluasi diri apakah sudah melaksanakan nilai-nilai yang terkandung dalam setiap butir Pancasila. Sebagai contoh, dalam pengamalan sila pertama beliau menanyakan kepada kami apakah kami telah memiliki teman yang berbeda agama dan pernahkah membuat kegiatan bersama teman yang berbeda agama.

Ibu Restu juga menjelaskan mengenai mengapa banyak terjadi tawuran pelajar akhir-akhir. Hal ini terjadi karena para pelajar yang melakukan tawuran tersebut tidak pernah mengemukakan pendapat sehingga ketika mendengar pendapat orang lain yang berbeda, siswa tersebut menjadi emosional dan akibatnya hal sepele pun dapat berakhir dengan perselisihan. Sebaliknya, apabila seseorang terbiasa mengungkapkan pendapat, apabila terjadi beda pendapat, maka orang ini akan lebih dewasa dan tidak lagi emosional.

Seminar diakhiri dengan kesimpulan yang sangat singkat namun mengena oleh Rosiana Silalahi selaku moderator. Rosi menyimpulkan bahwa setiap konflik berlandaskan SARA diawali dari stereotip atau prasangka buruk kita. Selama kita menilai orang lain berasal dari prasangka, kita sudah memulai konflik itu. Selain itu, sebagai umat beragama kalau tidak mendapatkan ucapan selamat hari raya dari umat agama lain, jangan terlalu sensitif. Setiap dari kita memiliki potensi untuk bertindak rasis dan diskriminatif ketika kita ada di kelompok kita. Suatu saat, kita pasti akan berada di kelompok mayoritas sekaligus minoritas. Bagi kaum minoritas, jangan pernah merasa minder dan juga tahu diri, contohnya sebagai penganut agama Katolik, harus tahu diri untuk tidak makan sembarangan di depan orang Islam yang sedang menjalankan puasa. Rosi juga berpesan kepada seluruh siswa yang menghadiri seminar untuk menjadi teladan dan penggiat pluralisme dimulai dari hal-hal kecil di sekitar kita.

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Melalui seminar “Pancasila dan Pluralisme” ini, banyak sekali pembelajaran dan nilai-nilai hidup yang kami dapatkan, antara lain :

1. Belajar dari pengalaman Pak Ahok, yang walaupun adalah seorang Tionghoa yang akrab dengan stereotip kaum minoritas, beliau berani mencoba melawan mainstream dan akhirnya sukses dengan apa yang diyakininya dalam memperjuangkan kepentingan rakyat.

2. Meyakini dan memperjuangkan 4 pilar dalam bernegara yakni Pancasila, UUD 1945, NKRI dan Bhinneka Tunggal Ika.

3. Sebagai generasi muda kita juga harus terjun langsung untuk dapat mengenal lebih dalam lagi dunia kemasyarakatan dengan mengikuti organisasi-organisasi yang ada, misalnya ikut OSIS di sekolah, dll.

4. Lebih menghargai dan menghormati sesama kita yang berbeda latar belakang, suku, agama, ras, dll. Tidak ada salahnya mencoba berdialog dan belajar pandangan-pandangan agama mereka atau lebih lanjut lagi saling bertukar pengetahuan.

5. Berpikir lebih terbuka dan rasional sehingga membuat kita menerima adanya perbedaan dan keanekaragaman yang merupakan realita bangsa kita, dan membuat pluralitas tersebut menjadi sumber kekuatan bangsa sehingga kita semua menjadi satu dalam persatuan Indonesia.

6. Setiap konflik berawal dari prasangka buruk kita akan orang lain. Ketika kita sudah men-judge orang dengan hal-hal yang negatif, maka konflik itu sudah dimulai. Oleh karena itu, cobalah untuk selalu berpikir positif dan menghilangkan semua prasangka buruk.

Pada akhirnya, potensi pluralitas yang dimiliki Indonesia harus kita jaga sebaik-baiknya dalam menciptakan kerukunan antarmasyarakat yang berbeda agama, etnis, suku, golongan, dll. karena merupakan salah satu kekuatan bangsa kita. Dalam beberapa tahun belakangan ini, kesadaran akan nilai-nilai Pancasila dan pluralisme seolah semakin memudar. Masih sering terjadi diskriminasi terhadap agama tertentu dan pengabaian akan pluralitas. Pancasila yang merupakan jati diri bangsa juga kerap disalahartikan, dipandang sebelah mata dan terancam oleh ideologi lain. Kalau bukan kita, lalu siapa lagi yang peduli terhadap nilai-nilai Pancasila dan pluralisme? Sebagai tunas-tunas bangsa, hendaknya kita mampu menjadi teladan dan penggerak pluralisme di tengah masyarakat Indonesia. Bersama kita bingkai keberagaman di negeri ini dengan kebhinnekaan.

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Finish My Paper

2011-12-18T21:42:00.002+07:00

OMG! Can't believe that I've done my paper~~~~ \(^O^)/ YATTAA~~~ Hard work has been really paid-off :"))) I'M TOO EXCITED BECAUSE OF THIS!

Rasanya pengen nangis lebay~~~ Akhirnya perjuangan berjam-jam, berhari-hari di depan laptop akhirnya (Y)

Broken Wings

2011-12-14T00:10:00.006+07:00

Sampai sekarang... pun rasanya masih tak bisa terima kalau saya bisa kuliah di universitas di luar negeri. Apalagi melihat teman-teman saya yang sudah mulai banyak yang diterima di universitas di luar negeri. Saya tak boleh iri :') Mereka semua pantas mendapatkan itu semua karena mereka mampu baik secara finansial maupun intelegensi, cerdas dan sangat berbakat.

Kuliah di luar negeri sejak kecil sudah jadi impian saya. Masih sedih banget sih, apalagi sejak insiden 'penolakan application scholarship yang saya alami BAHKAN SEBELUM application itu DIKIRIM'. Tapi kalau dipikir... ya sudahlah, ambil hikmahnya saja. I'm not capable nor deserved for it. Tuhan tahu kalau saya tidak akan mampu kuliah luar negeri. Tau sendiri kan, kemampuan otak dan berbahasa yang sangat pas-pasan dan bakat yang sangat minim (bahkan hampir tidak ada) pastinya bakal menghambat perkembangan saya di sana. Ditambah lagi, kemampuan finansial yang juga seadanya yang pasti akan mempersulit saya untuk berkuliah.

Kalau dianalogikan, saat ini saya ibarat kupu-kupu yang sayapnya patah. Gak bisa terbang. Krisis kepercayaan diri dan juga krisis optimisme. Serius deh, saya udah benar-benar patah semangat. Udah gak tahu mesti ngapain lagi.

"Ada saat di mana 'sayap' kita patah. Kadang kita hanya berharap Tuhan menyiapkan jalan lain yang lebih baik untuk kita. Walau kita tidak mampu lagi untuk terbang."

Saya masih (dan akan terus) percaya. Tuhan punya segudang rencana yang terbaik buat saya :')

P.S : Hari ini peringatan 6 tahun meninggalnya Ibu saya. Saya cuma berharap supaya Beliau mendapat kebahagiaan abadi dan diterima di sisi-Nya :") Ma, terus doakan saya dari atas sana yaah :)

P.P.S : I do need someone who can be my true partner, someone who understands me, someone who knows me best #sindromUPgalau LOL xD *tetap berprinsip cari pacar setelah lulus SMA lol*

Quotes

2011-12-12T23:56:00.001+07:00

Making a move may not necessary bring happiness

But not doing anything at all will definitely not bring happiness.

Even though this is something we may take for granted

Isn't it a saying that is great?

No matter what it is

Beginning to make a move is something very important. (^^)

(Yamashita Tomohisa)

Random Picture

2011-12-11T10:25:00.003+07:00

Looks like I've already been silly because of those five boys <3

Plus this guy <3

Sho is Love

2011-12-09T23:22:00.003+07:00

"WRITE it as a DREAM. READ it as a GOAL."

(Sakurai Sho)

Woy, gimana gua gak makin cinta ama ni cowo satu?

Website :)

2011-12-09T23:12:00.004+07:00

So... this is the website that I made during the web-design final test :))

What do you think?

Gonna Miss These Moments

2011-12-09T20:55:00.003+07:00

Last class-meeting with #MAHABARATA :')) Gonna spend every precious moments with them <3

Jombang's epic expression (Y) (Y)

Partner in crime <3 <3 <3 <3

With Felice 'Cubil' :D

My fangirling bestie ^^

Arashi FNS Meikyuu Love Song Performance

2011-12-09T00:13:00.007+07:00

So here's my resulf of Rainbow Quiz (referring to Arashi's color)

Your rainbow is shaded red.

What is says about you: You are a passionate person. You appreciate energetic people. You get bored easily and want friends who will keep up with you.

Find the colors of your rainbow at spacefem.com.

LOL. It's red yo. Red represents Sakurai Sho ^^ (he's my ichiban, btw) Somehow it fits me :) Well, yeah... talking about Arashi. I'm gonna talk about the incident in yesterday's FNS Kayousai 2011. Want to know? Arashi's second performance (Meikyuu Love Song) was really bad and embarrasing, I have to say. I'm gonna post an article from saobang2211@lj

Here's the article :

Hello everyone,
Did you happen to watch FNS Kayousai? Or even if you haven’t, I am sure you are aware of the problem that happened while Arashi was singing Meikyu Love song. I would like to tell you about this problem that I heard.
My dance friend’s mother’s friend’s sister works as a camera man. She was an assistant at the FNS Kayousai. Her, being a fan of Arashi, went to go watch Arashi on the monitor backstage. As soon as everyone heard Arashi singing, backstage was full of panick. These reasons are:
1. Nino’s mic wasn’t turned on in the beginning, until the staff went to go turn it on.
2. Ohno-kun’s mic was not on at all times except his solo.
3. They were supposed to have the earphones in their ears for the rhythm, but they didn’t have them for some reason.
The staff were desperately trying to find the cause for this problem. Finally, they made a conclusion that it was a trap. Have you guys heard? Last year, when it was announced that Arashi would be the host for Kouhaku, there was a weird article that had fake information about Arashi. The problem at FNS Kayousai is not the first time.
It seems that Arashi knew it was a trap. Yet, they continued to sing Meikyu Love Song with a smile.
Hearing that, it made me cry for many reasons. That there are people who do this to Arashi. That Arashi had such a hard time. That Arashi still continued to happily sing.

All credits goes to http://saobang2211.livejournal.com

So, what can I say about this incident : At first, I felt cringed you know, at the first 10 seconds when the instruments were played. And yeah, Nino's mic was turned off at the start of the song. From that point, all of them were like singing off-tune and I had to say that their voices were dissonance :(( Too bad. But, it was all paid-off with their first performance "Imouto". They sang nicely and their voices blended well :))

Arashi performed "Imouto"

According to what I read in LJ, the incindent wouldn't be a surprise, because they can't hear over themselves with the instrumental being so loud, WITHOUT EARPIECE and EAR MONITOR on the stage. They're trying to raise the volume vocally, which adds to the off-pitchness. For instance, Aiba who was tend to scream and make the song unharmonized .____.

I believed that they were so annoyed. I saw Matsujun's PISSED-OFF face during the song LOL XD I don't really know it was really a trap or someone tried to sabotage them. But as a professional entertainers, eventhough there were technical problems, the show must go on, right? And Arashi has proved their professionalism. Two thumbs up for them! During the song, they kept calm and cool, keep dancing and smiling as if there were nothing happened :') And at the last part of the song, Matsujun gave an "OK" sign it somehow made me tear and broken :(( I know Arashi was really really embarrased and I felt the same way too. Maybe that circumstances was called seconhand embarrased.

Sho sing Meikyuu Love Song (he act like nothing happened, huh?)

As far as I observed, Ohno's voice was great (as always), Sho was decent and stable, Nino.. I don't know... but he was like lowering his voice (it's not unusual Nino since his voice is always on a high-pitch), Matsujun and mostly Aiba who was screaming not singing and sometimes off-tune. LOL with that. All I heard was that they were more likely screaming rather than singing. Thanks to Ohno who sang well during the solo part. I don't know if there was no Ohno, it could be much worsen.

Nino sing Meikyuu Love Song

I know that Arashi is not the best singer. But... after I repeated their performances for the second times, I thought it was NOT THAT BAD AT ALL, eventhough their voice were mostly off-tune. I would like them to continue singing LIVE (not lip-synchronization), because I could HEAR THEIR TRUE VOICE, no matter how bad it is :))

Finally, I really want to say that I'M REALLY PROUD TO BE AN ARASHI FAN. They had already shown us that THERE'S NO SUCH THING AS PERFECTION and that THE SHOW MUST GO ON AND STAY CALM no matter what happens.

For Ohno, thankyou for showing us your great skill during the critical condition

For Sho, thankyou for your big refreshing smile in every condition (after this incident, I'm about to love him more and more coz I know that he is the one that's the most calm in the group, he acted like nothing happens :)))

For Nino, Matsujun, Aiba, thankyou for keeping your smile and stay calm (eventhough I know that Matsujun was deeply annoyed xD)

Haters and anti-fans gonna laugh their ass-off, but Arashi did their best during the performance. Afterall, they are a PRO ARTIST who shows their professionalism :))

THEY ARE STILL FIVE ANGELS FOR ME REGARDLESS FOR BEING PRO ABOUT IT ^^

ARASHI, DAISUKI DA YO~

Silly Gag

2011-11-18T22:17:00.000+07:00

got this at 9gag.com :)

Depresi Kartul

2011-11-06T22:08:00.002+07:00

Sekarang tanggal berapa? 6 November.

Deadline bab 3? 11 November.

Yak. Mati gua.

5 hari lagi adalah deadline kartul, sementara progress bab 3 gua baru 5%. Sinting kali gua bisa ngejar yang 95%-nya lagi cuman dalam tempo 5 hari -_____- kalau gua kerja siang-malam ya iya kali bisa selesai. Aduhhhh gimana dong ahhhhh.... PUTUSASA-STRESS-DEPRESI-PUSING jadi satu.

Ya emang sih gak bakal ada yang menghukum lo cuman karena gak nepati deadline kartul... (dan sebenarnya target bab 3 gua selesai adalah awal Desember sebenarnya) tapi ya tetep aja.... gimana gitu..

Dan mulai dari sekarang, gua ingin mencoba berkomitmen sama diri gua sendiri. Mulai besok, 7 November 2011, gua akan meluangkan waktu 1-2 jam di depan laptop untuk FOKUS BAB 3. Gapeduli deh besok ada apa, dan gak mesti nyampe 2 jam, yang penting ada waktu untuk fokus mengetik bab 3.

Doakan gua semoga misi 1-2 jam sehari khusus untuk kartul ini terwujud setiap harinya sampai BAB 3 gua selesai! AMINNNN!

Lebay Lo Ah!

2011-10-28T22:07:00.001+07:00

Hai kamu...

Please deh, bisa gak sehari aja gak annoying, gak lebay, gak heboh.

There's no such thing as PERFECTION tau!

Maunya serba sempurna. Ambisi yang berlebihan. Ntar kalo sekali jatuh, baru rasa.

Bersyukurlah kita semua yang pernah mengalami kegagalan. At least kita pernah ngerasain yang namanya ada di bawah. Daripada yang gak pernah gagal sekalipun, sekalinya kebanting pasti jauh lebih sakit.

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Jalani Saja Yang Ada

2011-10-25T21:16:00.003+07:00

*Post ini terinspirasi dari post di blog salah seorang kakak kelas waktu SMP*

Pernahkah kalian berpikir kalau pendidikan adalah hal yang "biasa"? Ya, mungkin masalah sekolah memang hal yang "biasa" BILA kalian datang dari keluarga yang berkecukupan secara finansial (dan bahkan mungkin lebih). Sudah selayaknya kalau kita terus bersekolah hingga jenjang pendidikan tertinggi.

Melanjutkan ke jenjang pendidikan yang tertinggi memang butuh banyak biaya. Keterbatasan finansial mungkin jadi hambatan bagi mereka yang ingin sekali mencapai cita-cita yang telah mereka gantung setinggi langit. Hal inilah yang sekarang saya alami. Sedari kecil, saya terus bermimpi untuk bisa melanjutkan kuliah di luar negeri. Namun, saya sadar, saya tidak datang dari keluarga dengan kemampuan finansial yang memadai. Orang tua saya tak mampu apabila saya melanjutkan kuliah di luar negeri. Dan sekarang, mimpi itu hanyalah tinggal angan-angan belaka yang sekarang seolah makin pudar begitu saja. Mimpi saya hancur berkeping-keping.

Nah, sekarang, buat kalian yang mungkin bernasib sama dengan saya, cobalah hargai dan jalani apa yang telah Anda dapat! Anda mungkin sudah tak mampu lagi untuk mewujudkan cita-cita melanjutkan kuliah di luar negeri. Tapi toh masih banyak universitas di dalam negeri sendiri yang tak kalah bagus kualitasnya, dengan harga yang jauh lebih terjangkau dan sesuai dengan kantong orang tua kita. Jangan sampai kita tetap memaksa kuliah di luar negeri, sementara keluarga di sini harus benar-benar banting tulang mencari uang untuk memenuhi segala kebutuhan kuliah dan belum lagi biaya hidup Anda di negeri orang. Awalnya memang berat, karena kita harus melepaskan semua mimpi-mimpi kita.

Gunakan kesempatan belajar yang Anda dapat sebaik mungkin. Do the best. Capai hasil yang optimal, jangan jadi minimalis. JALANI SAJA YANG ADA. Tetaplah bersyukur masih diberikan kesempatan untuk melanjutkan kuliah, yah meskipun tempat kuliahnya mungkin tidak sesuai dengan keinginan kita. Siapa tahu apa yang anggap biasa saja bisa menjadi apa yang diimpikan orang lain atau bahkan menjadi titik tolak bagi Anda dalam meraih kesuksesan. Who knows?

Mungkin orang lain beruntung mampu kuliah di luar negeri sementara kita harus tetap bersabar dulu untuk kuliah di dalam negeri sendiri. Jangan salahkan orang tua yang kemampuan finansialnya memang tidak mencukupi untuk membiayai kuliah kita di luar negeri. Ada baiknya kita tak menambah beban orang tua. Ingat, jalan orang berbeda-beda. Percayalah, Tuhan telah mengatur semua yang terbaik untuk kita.

Saya sendiri juga masih dalam tahap penerimaan. Menerima kalau mimpi saya kuliah di luar negeri sudah tak mungkin tercapai. Saya sedang mencoba optimis bahwa universitas dan jurusan yang saya telah pilih di dalam negeri ini akan mendatangkan hasil yang optimal buat saya, berusaha membangun niat untuk tetap do the best selama kuliah nanti, dan mencoba untuk tetap bersyukur telah diterima di salah satu universitas swasta di Jakarta :')

P.S : Semoga dengan modal untuk kuliah yang minimal, bisa mendatangkan hasil yang optimal bagi diri saya di masa depan nanti :"))

P.P.S : Btw, I'm a future accountant :D

Ciao SuperSic

2011-10-25T20:52:00.006+07:00

Sebagai penikmat MotoGP yang boleh juga dikatakan die hard fans... Gua cukup terkejut setelah menyaksikan sendiri peristiwa yang menimpa Marco Simoncelli. Dia meninggal di usia yang cukup muda, 24 tahun, di Sirkuit Sepang, Malaysia. Jadi waktu di lap ke-2 itu, si Simoncelli ini sedang berusaha menyalip Alvaro Bautista. Nah, karena waktu itu ada tikungan jadi si Simoncelli ini membelokkan motornya sampe-sampe sikunya itu menyentuh aspal dan akhirnya karena terlalu miring, olenglah motornya. Sialnya, dia jatuh keseret bersama motornya bergeser ke kanan dan memotong jalur yang akan dilewati Colin Edwards dan Valentino Rossi. Naas, Colin Edwards dan Valentino Rossi yang datang dari belakang dengan kecepatan tinggi tidak bisa menghindar. Dan akhirnya Edwards melindas kepala Simoncelli dan dia sendiri terpental dari motornya sementara Rossi juga ikut oleng motornya tapi masih berhasil melanjutkan race. Simoncelli langsung terkapar tak bergerak di tengah lintasan. Saat itu red flag langsung dikibarkan tanda race ditunda karena ada kecelakaan besar. Sampai akhirnya pukul 16.56 waktu setempat, Simoncelli dinyatakan telah meninggal oleh tim medis MotoGP :'(((( Beruntung Edwards hanya mengalami gegar otak ringan dan dislokasi pada tulang bahunya.

Gua tidak akan menge-post-kan foto tragedi kecelakaan secara pastinya, karena pasti semua pembaca sudah melihatnya sendiri kan foto-fotonya maupun video sudah bertebaran di media cetak maupun media elektronik...

Yang pasti sih... gua merasa kehilangan Simoncelli juga *entahlah apapun yang berhubungan dengan pembalap MotoGP, empati gua sangat-sangat tinggi sekali dalam hal ini* Gua sering juga sih ngata-ngatain dia pembalap gila, sinting, suka jatohin pembalap lain, penyebab patahnya tulang selangka Dani Pedrosa. Tapi... ternyata gua salah. Simoncelli menurut para pengamat MotoGP diprediksi bakal jadi juara dunia musim 2012 dan menjadi penerus dari Valentino Rossi yang tak lain tak bukan adalah senior sekaligus sahabatnya. Simoncelli merupakan salah satu pembalap terhebat di MotoGP, yah walaupun dengan gaya balapnya yang agak ugal-ugalan dan sering diprotes pembalap lain itu. Tapi, akhir-akhir ini gua merasa gaya balapnya udah rada calm dan dan gitu kasar. Ini membuktikan kalau dia juga mendengarkan kritik orang lain. He was such a great rider ever. Salah satu pembalap favorit gua waktu masih di 250 cc selain Pedrosa dan Stoner. Dan kata bokap gua, beginilah mental juara. Gaya balapnya harus kayak Simoncelli.

Gua bisa banget ngerasain apa yang dirasakan Rossi, kehilangan seorang sahabat. Bahkan gua merasa miris banget setiap kali ngeliat tayangan ulang kecelakaannya. Simoncelli masih muda banget, masih 24 tahun. Kenapa dia harus pergi secepat itu? Dengan cara yang begitu tragis?

However, goodbye Marco 'SuperSic' Simoncelli. I'm sorry for my bad words :( May you rest in peace. You will be always remembered ....

Ciao SuperSic!

I'm So Sick

2011-10-25T20:11:00.007+07:00

Halo semuanyaaa akhirnya gua balik ke dunia per-blog-an :'))) *terharu*

Jadi Minggu kemarin gua baru saja kembali dari retret di Wisma Samadhi, Sukabumi selama 4 hari (20-23 Oktober 2011). Nah berhubung gua ikut retret di gelombang 4 alias yang terakhir maka tak ada hari libur. Senin langsung masuk dan gua kembali bertemu ulangan matriks (syukur alhamdulilah gua bisa ngerjain matriks dengan cukup teliti). Tapi efek dari retret itu adalah... pagi-pagi hari Senin kepala gua pusing + perut gua mual. Alhasil gua memutuskan ke UKS pas istirahat ke-2. Ternyata hari itu semua yang retret kemarin juga TUMBANG. Total ada 8 orang dari kelas IPA dan IPS yang udah teler. Akhirnya karena di UKS cuma ada 4 ranjang, kita pun tidur berdua-dua..... Yah.... gua cuman menyayangkan aja sih.... kenapa kesehatan begitu diabaikan? Bahkan UKS pun tak mendukung karena sebelumnya mereka yang sakit itu sempat kena kotoran seperti debu yang berwarna hitam yang katanya berasal dari mesin diesel. Gila kan, ini sih yang ada orang yang udah sakit makin tambah sakit.

Intinya sih ya... daripada menggembar-gemborkan slogan 3 kata itu, lebih baik urus dulu, benerin dulu tuh UKSnya... kalo UKSnya aja kayak gitu kan... kesannya kesehatan itu dinomorsekiankan.. Dan semakin ke sini gua merasa sekolah ini makin tak manusiawi saja.... Yah, contohnya inilah... abis retret tanpa libur barang sehari... akibatnya banyak yang bertumbangan. Hari ini pun di kelas gua 5 orang gak masuk. LIMA! Itu udah rekor banget buat satu kelas orang yang gak masuk sebanyak itu.

Overall... retret kemarin sebenarnya cukup membosankan yah, I don't know why. Mungkin karena materi yang diberikan terlalu teoretis. Tapi paling tidak pulang retret ini membawa sedikit pencerahan dan semangat baru buat gua. Gua jadi yakin akan pilihan gua untuk kuliah di Atma Jaya jurusan Akuntansi :') Selain itu banyak banget quote-quote dari Kitab Suci yang begitu meneguhkan gua :))) Yang paling gua inget adalah kutipan dari Yohanes 14 : 1, "Janganlah gelisah hatimu. Percayalah pada Allah. Percayalah juga kepada-Ku." Cocok deh buat kita-kita yang lagi galau-galaunyaaaa :)

Itu aja kali yah... yang bisa ditulis untuk post ini. Masih banyak post tentang hal lain yang akan gua tulis hari ini.. Termasuk kabar duka dari Marco Simoncelli yang meninggal di Sirkuit Sepang, Malaysia, Minggu, 23 Oktober 2011 kemarin...

Magical Day

2011-10-11T21:26:00.011+07:00

Today was such a MAGICAL DAY for me :) I had two good news.

First, I was officially accepted at Atma Jaya Catholic University, Faculty of Economy majoring in Accounting :') Thanks God for that :) Second, I got some precious presents from my precious bestfriends :D They gave me some cute yet amazing postcards with birthday wishes on it. I was moved by them :)

Some of the postcards (which are my favorite) :))

From Liza

OMG That picture of Bustomi in the bottom right made me burst into

laugh. This was so funny :)

From Syane

From Terebi :)

The most favorite of all (Y)

THANKS GIRLS FOR THE BEAUTIFUL PRESENTS :'))

Stressed

2011-10-09T09:54:00.003+07:00

AAAHH~~~ PENGEN GULING-GULINGAN DI KASUR RASANYA~

Kapan gua bisa lagi merasakan weekend yang NORMAL???

Tidak

2011-10-07T18:50:00.002+07:00

Tipe orang kayak saya itu....

Butuh motivasi dan dorongan

Tapi sayangnya...

Adakah yang mau memotivasi saya?

Peduli sedikit aja sama saya?

Tidak.

Sayangnya tidak ada.

No... Forever ♥

2011-10-07T18:43:00.003+07:00

Can you take a later bus?
I want to be with you for a while longer...
No, tomorrow too.
If it's okay, the day after tomorrow too.
No...forever. --- Freeter SP

Schweet ♥

Credits : http://nade-gata.livejournal.com/21229.html#cutid1

300th Posts

2011-10-07T14:20:00.003+07:00

SO EXCITEDDD COS THIS IS MY 300TH POSTS :))))) SENANGNYA SUDAH BISA MENULIS SAMPAI SEGINI BANYAK SETELAH 4 TAHUN :D Rasanya pengen loncat-loncat gak keruan :) Terimakasih sudah menjadi tempat sampah gua selama 1 tahun terakhir ini. Cuman berharap blog ini bakal jadi semacam memoar buat hidup gua dan kalau bisa (AMIN) JADI BLOG YANG MENGINSPIRASI ORANG-ORANG :) Gua seneng, gua sedih, gua galau, semua bakal tertuang di blog ini :D Blog ini awalnya isinya cuman quotes-quotes dari orang, terus lama-kelamaan berubah jadi catatan aktivitas keseharian, trus ada juga artikel-artikel buah pemikiran gua... dan makin ke sini... isinya seputar kegalauan dan kecemasan gua akan masa depan. Sebenernya juga banyak banget ide-ide yang pengen gua tuangkan di sini tapi begitu ide itu muncul lupa gua catet dan alhasilnya waktu blog ini dibuka, tiba-tiba udah speechless dan lupa mau ngomongnya. Note to myself for now on: kalau dapet ide buat nulis, harus catet buru2 biar gak lupa! Udahan dulu ah, pendek aja hehehe :)

p.s : today I was lucky. nilai integral luas ngepas 76 dan gak remed yeayyyy :))

Semoga Ini Yang Terbaik

2011-10-02T12:38:00.005+07:00

"God, if someday i lose my hope.. Please tell me that Your plans are better than my dreams..."

Quote barusan yang gua temukan di timeline kayaknya ngena banget loh sama kondisi gua sekarang. Akhir-akhir ini gua memang sudah kehilangan harapan, mulai timbul keinginan untuk menyerah. Kenapa menyerah? Gua udah capek men. Hasil nilai selama ini rasanya udah peak-nya. Udah mentok. Gak bisa gua maksimalin lagi. Seberapa keras pun gua usaha, sampai badan gua rontok pun, hasilnya tetep segitu-gitu aja. Gua sadar. Udah cukup buat gua. Gua ga mau lagi nge-forsir badan dan pikiran gua habis-habisan. Gua sadar ama kemampuan gua yang emang standar aja.

Nah, ini masalahnya. Di post-post sebelumnya gua menggembar-gemborkan kalau gua pengen masuk jurusan Mikrobiologi ITB-lah, Teknik Kimia Unpar-lah. Tapi ternyata, akhirnya itu kurang direstui sama bokap. Bokap bilang kalau nanti kuliah ambilnya jangan yang berat-berat, nanti takutnya udah berat-berat susah dapet kerjaannya. Om dan tante gua juga bilang begitu. Mereka emang bener kok. Gua harus realistis kalau bidang-bidang kayak gitu emang bakal susah dapet pekerjaannya. Yah kalaupun dapet pekerjaan, mungkin gua bakal mendekam di laboratorium, bikin percobaan-percobaan dan inovasi baru. Pekerjaan kayak gitu emang hebat sih bisa nemuin sesuatu yang baru. Oh men, gua gamau jadi orang nerd yang kerjanya gitu-gitu aja, gak sosialisasi sama orang. Dan lagian kalau dipikir, gua bertekad masuk jurusan itu cuman karena gengsi semata. Biar dianggap keren.

Dan jadilah... gua disarankan untuk memilih Ekonomi Akuntansi alias accounting. Hmm, sebenernya ini nih yang katanya paling banyak lapangan pekerjaannya dan paling gampang dapet kerjaan (semoga deh ya). Jujur aja, ini gak pernah terlintas di pikiran gua kalau kuliah gua bakal ngambil jurusan ini, pilihan ini datengnya tiba-tiba banget. Nyatanya aja udah ada beberapa orang yang menyayangkan gua masuk IPA kalau endingnya bakal ngambil ekonomi juga. Tapi yaudalah, sekarang gua harus fokus sama apa yang udah gua pilih. Gak perlu denger kanan-kiri, yang ada ntar galau lagi. Besok gua bakal serahin formulir KJBT Unika Atmajaya. Semoga keterima di Fak. Ekonomi Jurusan Akuntansi. Semoga bisa jadi future accountant yang oke. Semoga ini memang yang terbaik. Biarin deh gua harus melupakan semua mimpi-mimpi gua, asal ini jalan yang paling baik buat gua. AMIN.

ARASHI MEME XD

2011-09-28T22:47:00.002+07:00

1.You were baited by Jun-kun. YES
2.Anything over 49kg is “fat”. NO
3.The best dancer in Johnny’s is Ohno, period. YES
4.You’re forever daydreaming and imagining… about Arashi and you. YES
5.You save for NatsuCon… the whole year, 2 years, 10 years, etc. YES
6.Only true idols get extremely popular after putting stockings over their head, wearing nipple shirts and Daisy Dukes. YES
7.You’re envious of the Arashi FC members. YES
8.You’re envious of anyone that lives in Japan. YES
9.Every time a new single comes out, you bounce around the room in joy and watch the PV 19074546 times. YES
10.Despite how poor you are, somehow you manage to buy all albums/singles. NO
11.The first kanji you memorized is 嵐 - “arashi”. NO
12.And then the kanji of all the members’ names. NO
13.When speaking Japanese you only know “male” dominates words such as “omae”, “umai”, “kuse”. YES
14.Eating expired food is not crazy at all, but funny. YES
15.When someone mentions ‘Bambi’, it’s Sho or Jun that you think of, not the Disney movie. YES
16.No matter how many times, you always cry when watching Aiba read his letter on 24hr TV. YES
17.You want a pet and his name is Momo. NO
18.You name things after Arashi such as pets, computers, your external HD. YES
19.The Sims is a game you started just so you can have characters named after Arashi. NO
20.The best university in all of Japan is Keio, period. YES
21.You’ve bought a baby blue DS. NO
22.You didn’t know Jun was the youngest. NO
23.You didn’t know Ohno was the oldest. YES
24.Before Arashi, S&M was disturbing. Now it’s just an everyday part of life. YES
25.One of the main reasons your computer lives is to download Arashi stuff. YES
26.You’ve cried after your hard drive crashed. YES
27.No matter how many times you burn things off, your hard drive is always full. YES
28.You’ve sat your friends down and began the history on Arashi. NO
29.Your friends can put names to faces. YES
30.When asked if you have a boyfriend, you have casually said “yes” and pictured one of the members. YES
31.You wish that Johnny’s stuff wouldn’t be so expensive.YES
32.Spent it 5 minutes after you vowed this because a new photo album came out. NO
33.There is an Arashi photo that you see everyday - on a car, pencil case, wallet, planner… YES
34.Your cell phone wallpaper is Arashi. YES
35.Your cell phone ring tone is Arashi. NO
36.Aiba has the best English in all of Japan. YES
37.December 24th is not Christmas Eve, it is Aiba’s birthday. YES
38.When going to karaoke you sing at least one Arashi song. HAVEN'T BEEN TO THE KARAOKE
39.When singing in the car or anywhere, you MUST follow the hand motions during the chorus… NO
40.You’ve been jealous of animals. NO
41.You read “asahi” as “arashi”. YES
42.The best actor in Japan is Nino, period. YES
43.Short guys are DEFINITELY okay. YES
44.Guys with bad skin are okay too. NO
45.Guys skinnier than me, that’s okay too. NO
46.When someone says “captain” or “leader”, the first person you think of is Ohno. YES
47.Sometimes you hear “Nino” instead of “Nemo”. NO
48.Therefore you buy Nemo things thinking of Nino. (Lol this is cute. I don’t go that far though.) NO
49.Ohno should be a world-renowned artist. YES
50.You’ve come to tolerate/love other Johnny’s artists because of Arashi. YES
51.You’ve pulled all-nighters to wait for videos, scans, reports. YES
52.Sometimes you wonder if Arashi are idols or comedians or cute little kids. YES
53.You start off with a favorite Arashi song, but soon after you can’t decide. YES
54.You plan on going to Japan because of Arashi. (Amen!) YES
55.You start giggling to yourself after finding something “Japanese”. YES
56.When you meet someone Japanese the first thing you want to do is ask is whether they know Arashi. (EVERY TIME.) YES
57.Nino should be a professional song writer. YES
58.The only man that can pull off a belly button ring is Sho. NO
59.Neon-colored suits are completely acceptable for any occasion. YES
60.When someone says “tension” you think “Aiba.” YES
61.Your parents know Arashi songs and the members’ name. YES BUT NOT THE NAME
62.Gotten into a fight with siblings about Arashi. NO
63.Have Arashi posters but won’t put them up because you’re afraid you’ll ruin them. NO
64.When people pronounces Nino’s name wrong it annoys you. YES
65.Like to yell out “YEAH!” at the end of things. NO
66.Like to yell out “DO IT!” as your motivation. NO
67.Fancams are heaven sent. NO
68.You buy CDs but listen to download versions because you don’t want to open your album copy. YES
69.You wish you could befriend Ohno’s mom. NO
70.Many times you have looked down at their pants and have been pleasantly surprised. Now you can’t stop looking there. YES
71.You are envious of people like Inoue mao, Suzuki Ann and Aoi Yu. TES
72.You have gone down the list of “requirements for Arashi’s girlfriend/wife” and started to change certain aspects of yourself so you have more points. YES
73.Guys who paint their nails are okay. YES BUT ONLY THEM XD
74.Don’t mind the fact that the guy owns 100000x more clothes than you. YES
75.Watching several Japanese variety shows a week without understanding any Japanese, just to watch their faces is absolutely normal. YES
76.You don’t listen to English songs anymore because you listen to Arashi all the time. YES
77.You get to have a new set of friends (online) because of Arashi. YES
78.The songs you play over and over again in your mp3 is Arashi’s. YES
79.Ordered Skinny Latte coffee takeout from Starbucks so that they can write “SK” on the cup and told them your name’s “Ohmiya”. NO
80.Guys who can cross their legs are totally acceptable. YES BUT ONLY THEM XD
81.You watched Gokusen/Kimi Wa Petto/Bambino/Tokyo Tower/Hana Yori Dango etc. just for MatsuJun. YES
82.Guys kissing/hugging each other/holding hands is no problem now. ALWAYS YES

Simply True

2011-09-28T22:44:00.003+07:00

“Don’t take anything for granted. Going to new places, even if it looks tiring, is enough to fill you with hope and excitement. You can work harder if you know there are people around you who are supporting you too." - Sakurai Sho

18

2011-09-26T19:20:00.004+07:00

Theme song : Happy Birthday by NewS (feel like they were singing that song for me :P)

Yak. Hari ini, 26 SEPTEMBER 2011 gua resmi berusia 18 tahun. DELAPAN BELAS. Time flies so fast. Orang lain belum genap 17 tahun atau bahkan baru melewati beberapa bulan di usia mereka yang 17, gua udah 18 tahun aja tau-tau -____-

Jadi intinya, gua udah 18 tahun men. Udah lebih legal lagi daripada waktu gua masih 17 tahun. Gua harus bisa semakin dewasa lagi dalam berpikir dan bertindak. Selama di usia gua yang ke-17, gua masih merasa belum bisa sepenuhnya bersikap dewasa yang harus bener-bener bisa menentukan sikap dan pilihan. Susah men. Gak segampang yang lo kira. Contohnya aja gua masih suka ngeluh kalo sekali nge-down. Kalo gua udah dewasa, harusnya sih gua stay cool dan tetep tenang juga fokus. Gak cuman itu, gua panikan banget, susah banget jadi orang yang kalem menghadapi apapun.

Gua berharap banget, di usia yang ke-18 ini bisa seimbang antara umur dan juga tingkat kedewasaan, which means mental age gua sesuailah gitu sama umur. Dan satu lagi, prinsip gua : umur boleh 18, tapi muka harus tetep imut-imut ^^ LOL

Terakhir, terimakasih yaaa buat semua yang udah ngucapin happy birthday ke gua :)
Btw orang yang pertama ngasih gua ucapan tak lain tak bukan adalah Syane Agacy, teman fangirling gua ^^ Udah gitu dia lengkap banget lagi : sms, Facebook, Twitter satu paket. Terus ada Theresia alias Terebi yang mau nulisin ucapan di papan terus ditambahin embel-embel ucapan dari Yamapi, Tego, Sho plus Arashi hahaha. Thanks banget terr hahaha gua puasss banget :'))

P.S : harapan di usia ke-18 ini : semakin matang dalam pikiran dan tindakan, stay cool, gak boleh galau-galau lagi, selain itu gua berharap banget bisa kuliah di Sekolah Ilmu dan Teknologi Hayati Jurusan Mikrobiologi Institut Teknologi Bandung 2012. AMINNNN :))

Kangen

2011-09-24T22:54:00.006+07:00

Barusan gua nguprek isi laptop gua. Sambil menyambi melanjutkan bab 2 kartul gua yang selama midtest terlantar gajelas nasibnya, gua menemukan tulisan-tulisan lama gua zaman SD dan SMP. Tiba-tiba gua kangen nulis. Dulu gua sukaaaaa banget nulis cerpen-cerpen gitu. Bahkan kalau nggak salah waktu SD gua pernah mengirimkan cerpen-cerpen gua itu hingga akhirnya sampai 3 kali cerpen gua dimuat di majalah Arif. Tahu kan majalah questionnaire mingguan itu? Terus selain itu, karena menulis pula gua bisa ikut Konferensi Anak Bobo 2004, yang membuat teman-teman gua bertambah, gak cuman dari sekolah gua aja, tapi juga dari seluruh pelosok Indonesia :') *ah, kangen masa-masa itu* Terus selama 3 tahun gua bersekolah di SMP, gua ikut jurnalistik dan sempet jadi Ketua Redaksi Buletin Sekolah. Waktu SD sampe SMP gua sadar banget, menulis tuh passion gua. Kalau udah berhubungan dengan menulis, entah mengapa gua bisa melakukannya dengan mengalir begitu aja.

Tapi, sejak gua masuk di sekolah ini. Gua udah berhenti dari kegiatan menulis ini. Dulu, waktu SMP hampir setiap hari gua dikejar-kejar deadline buat ngumpulin artikel dan juga merancang layout buat edisi berikutnya. Kalau sekarang, menulis banyak pun rasanya agak susah gimana gitu. Ya, mungkin karena gua udah ga terbiasa menulis rutin setiap hari, seperti dulu waktu SMP. Sekarang mau menuliskan sesuatu aja (di luar blog ini) rasanya susah banget. Kata-kata yang keluar jadi sedikit dan terbatas banget.

Jujur gua kangen banget bisa nulis-nulis lagi. Nulis cerpen ampe berlembar-lembar. Terus ngirimin artikel ke majalah. Gua pengen banget bisa ngelakuin itu lagi. Tapi, di saat yang lagi hecticnya keterlaluan kayak gini hal itu kayaknya susah untuk direalisasikan. Yah semoga aja nanti setelah semua urusan gua selesai di SMA ini, gua bisa kembali menyalurkan passion yang hilang selama 3 tahun itu.

Masalahnya, tahun depan gua bakal kuliah. Bukan siswa lagi. Tapi MAHAsiswa. Gua udah mantep banget pengen masuk jurusan Food Technology kalau engga Teknik Kimia. Anehnya, gua tidak pernah berpikir kalau jurnalistik bisa jadi pilihan juga. Gua bisa aja kan masuk jurusan Komunikasi Massa. Kerja jadi editor di majalah gitu dan syukur-syukur bisa bikin majalah sendiri dan jadi bosnya :3 Seru kan kerja di dunia jurnalistik. Bisa kenal orang-orang hebat dan bahkan berteman dengan mereka. Tapi... gua jadinya galau lagi nih. Hasil tes bakat menunjukkan gua kurang bagus di sastra alias tulis-menulis. Emang sih tes bakat gak bisa dijadiin patokan seseorang. Sudah pasti sastra keluar di bagian yang kurang buat gue karena udah hampir 3 tahun gak pernah rutin menulis.

Tapi gua tidak pernah melontarkan keinginan gua ke bokap buat masuk Komunikasi Massa. Mungkin bokap bakal shock lagi kali, dengar gua bilang cadangan jurusannya Komunikasi Massa. Dia pasti bilang, "Loh, kalau kamu ambil Komunikasi Massa kamu nanti kerjanya mau jadi apa?" Bokap selalu aja nanyain prospek ke depan dari jurusan yang bakal gua pilih. Yah emang sih prospek suatu jurusan itu harus diperhatiin banget. Tapi kan, kalaupun tuh jurusan prospeknya cerah, tapi lo gak niat ngejalanin kuliahnya ya sama aja boong dong nantinya. Ujung-ujungnya pasti gak sukses.

Jadi...... intinya. Sekarang lagi-lagi gua berpikir dan meyakinkan diri gua sendiri. Gua udah commit ama diri gua sendiri, gua gak bakal deh masuk jurusan Kedokteran (sejak kecil gak ada nih di daftar cita-cita gua, lagian gua ngeliat darah aja udah semaput), Arsitektur (ini terlalu berat, dan gua gak bakat-bakat amat di bidang ini), dan Hukum (mabok gua ngapalin KUHP dan pasal-pasal). Akhirnya, gua sudah memutuskan kalau jurusan kuliah adalah : Food Technology, Teknik Kimia, Teknik Industri, Ekonomi atau Bisnis, dan Desain Interior. Komunikasi Massa kayaknya engga masuk dalam list deh, karena gua merasa menulis cuman hobi aja, dan kalaupun mau buka usaha majalah, gua pasti bisa tanpa perlu kuliah komunikasi massa segala. Desain Komunikasi Visual juga sepertinya tidak jadi gua ambil, karena ada orang yang bilang kalau lo hobi gambar atau desain-desain pake komputer gitu enaknya dijadiin hobi aja dan jangan dijadiin pekerjaan (ada benernya juga sih, lagi DKV kan bisa belajar sendiri dari tutorial internet, ngapain cape-cape kuliah).

Yak... lagi-lagi post ini endingnya selalu aja tentang kegalauan gua dalam menentukan jurusan kuliah. Ya faktanya itu sih yang selalu gua alami di hari-hari terakhir ini. Gua bener-bener galau. Gak ada seorang pun yang bisa ngasih gua pencerahan dan motivasi kalau gua BISA *sobbed* Yang ada orang-orang yang malah bikin mental down dan bikin lo galau lagi, padahal lo udah mantep bakal ambil jurusan itu.

Sesuai yang dikatakan Sr. Margriet di rapat ortu tadi aja sih (seperti yang diceritakan bokap), biarkan Tuhan yang mengatur masalah jurusan kuliah. Ntar juga pasti ada jalannya. Pasti inget dong quotes klise yang satu ini :

"Where there's a will, THERE'S A WAY."

Kalau kita mau, pasti ada jalan. Kalau kita mau, kita pasti bisa. Dan tambahan quote favorit gua dari Paulo Coelho :

"And, when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it."

Quotes-quotes itu emang klise, I know. Tapi cuma quotes-quotes itu yang masih bisa memotivasi gua untuk fokus sama tujuan dan tetep berjuang walaupun gua udah gagal berkali-kali.

God, I know you will answer my prayer. You know what best for me.

So True

2011-09-24T21:57:00.002+07:00

Tadi barusan bokap mindahin channel ke MTV Asia. Terus ngeliat ada konser band-band Korea gitu deh. Kemudian ada boyband apa gua gatau namanya, dan bokap tiba-tiba nyeletuk, "Ck, itu apaan lagi rambutnya dipirang-pirangin ga jelas, mukanya aneh, mending lagunya enak." HAHAHA. Terus gua langsung tanya, "Tuh kan, aku bilang apa, mendingan artis Jepang kan? Mukanya gak ada yang oplas, rambut gak dimacem-macemin, dan lagunya bermakna." Dan bokap SETUJU HAHAHAHAH. Sumpah gua puas banget loh. Maaf ya bagi KPopers, saya tidak bermaksud nge-bash idola Anda. Tapi gua cuman butuh statement dari bokap gua, yakni dia meng-approve bahwa JPop is better than KPop. Dan dia akhirnya mau mengerti kenapa gua cinta mati ama ARASHI hahahahaha *evil laugh*

Pretty Messed Up

2011-09-24T17:49:00.004+07:00

As you know, for about 4 months, I've been doing this thing : collecting postcards from all over the world. So far, it's been more than 20 postcards. For most of people, it might sounds nerd and kurang kerjaan lo, yea. In social class at my school, this hobby is quite popular. But not with the science class. As far as I know, only me and my best friend, Sari who are currently doing this.

I don't know what's wrong with me LOL. But having this kind of hobby always makes me soothe and relax for the school's hecticness.

From Switzerland :3
This postcard is too cute ^^

From Netherlands :)

From Russia :))

But... the more I'm thinking about this.. I feel like... I'm doing this because I'M LONELY. oh yesh baby :) hahaha. Sorry I've been pretty messed up for words T.T It's like postcards are my best friendssss -_____- Tau ah. Gua lagi kacau berat nih. Lagi benar-benar kesepian. Butuh seseorang yang bisa diajak curhat.

Melancholic

2011-09-24T16:53:00.001+07:00

Ini... bener-bener tepat banget deh ah sama gue....
What do you think?

Don't You Ever Lose Your Optimism

2011-09-23T11:09:00.006+07:00

Long time no blog, well. I really should say that mid-term tests (this is a cliche reason actually) were the doors of hell -_____- Bet my scores will dropped-down as if it was pulled by gravity T.T *sobbed*

Hari ini hari kedua terakhir sebelum mid-semester berakhir. Tebak apa? Ulangan mid program gua kacau-balau, gagal total semuanya. Gak tau deh mau dapet berapa. Prediksi gua sih bakal dapet 7-an (amin deh, jangan kurang dari itu .___.) Gak tau kenapa, padahal gua udah belajar bener perasaan. Tapi pas eksekusinya ya... gitu deh... Tau sendiri gua orangnya panikan banget. Udah gitu ditambah lagi INTUISI GUA YANG GAK PERNAH BENER KALO NEBAK SOAL YANG BENER-BENER BUTA JAWABANNYA. It's infuriating, though. Dan bahkan selama mid nih, saking stressnya ceritanya, badan gua sampai pusing-anget gak jelas gitu. Dan hari ini ketika mid-nya Bahasa ama Sejarah, itu penyakit hilang seketika loh. Gila, stress bener-bener bisa ngerusak badan :((

Dan sebenernya gak cuma FAKTOR X itu sih yang selalu mengganggu gua mengerjakan tes-tes. Main problemnya gak lain gak bukan adalah KEMAMPUAN gua yang emang cuma RATA-RATA, which means gak pinter tapi gak juga dodol-dodol banget -____- Hasil tes bakat baru keluar men dan IQ gua cuman 118 (turun jauh dibanding IQ gua waktu SMA kelas 1) Terus terang aja gua shock dengan hasil ini. Jadi artinya selama ini ya gua .... emang biasa-biasa aja gitu (ya terus kalo lo emang orang yang biasa-biasa, lo mau apa?) Pantes gua sering TOLOL, GAK TELITI, APA-APA GAK NGERTI ngerjain sesuatu yang berhubungan ama hitung-hitungan. Ya wong IQ gua cuman segitu -____- Oke stop. Sekarang kesannya gua menyalahkan si IQ yang emang cuman segitu.

Dan akhirnya gua sampai pada suatu kesimpulan : kalau waktu dulu-dulu itu... waktu SD dan SMP... gua pinter dan bisa juara kelas gak lain dan gak bukan karena gua rajin dan usaha keras -_____- agak down & depressed juga sih kalau membandingkan gua yang sekarang dengan gua yang dulu. sekarang... rasanya mau usaha dan belajar mati-matian mbok ya nilai gua segitu-segitu aja. Udah pol. Gak bisa lebih tinggi lagi.

Gua suka iri (wajar dong yah, manusia iri ...) sama mereka yang gak pernah buat PR, belajarnya cuman bentar tapi hasilnya maksimal banget. Berbanding terbalik ama gua, contohnya, yang belajar sampe jungkir-balik pun hasilnya gak maksimal, atau kadang jelek banget -_____- Ya emang sih, kalau tipe-tipe yang kayak gitu, mereka itu pinternya gifted. Males-malesan pun masih bisa ngerti pelajaran. Lah kalo gua... sekali lengah dikit dari penjelasan guru dan gak pernah buat PR sedikit pun... wassalam deh.

Nah.. sekalian aja sesi curhatnya di sini deh ya. Entah kenapa sejak gua kelas 11, gua jadi gampang banget PESIMIS. Belom ngapa-ngapain udah bilang gak bisa, pasti jelek nilainya, dll. Udah gitu, sekali gua dapet nilai jelek, pasti gua down setengah mati. Ngeluh ke orang-orang sekeliling gua. Yah, mungkin ini efek dari gua yang sejak SD-SMP jarang banget ngalamin kegagalan model begini. Sekali jatoh, gua always down banget. Sekarang sejak sekolah di sekolah yang tuntutannya nilainya setinggi langit (gua ngebayangin 10 tahun lagi, SKBMnya mungkin bisa 80 atau 85 kali ya--- brb die dulu), gak cuman sekali, dua kali gua gagal, tapi berkali-kali pun gua masih merasa depressed banget sama ke-fail-an nilai gua.

Jujur aja, rasanya di bawah itu gak enakkkkk banget.... Bukan malu, tapi menderita banget rasanya..... Nyesek istilahnya. Jujur aja, nilai bagi gua bukan segalanya. Nilai gak kita bawa mati kan? Serius deh. Tapi gimana rasanya kalo kita dapet nilai jelek? Pasti down banget lah. Dan cuma nilai yang bisa bikin kita down sedown-downnya. Gak mungkin enggak, kan?

Gua tau kok, hidup manusia itu kayak roda. Ada saatnya kita di bawah, ada saatnya kita di atas. Tapi kok ya... gua merasa... lagi-lagi hidup gua akhir-akhir ini kok di bawah terus ya... Nilai-nilai gue apa kabar ya Tuhan :(( Jeleknya gak ketulungan pasti. Yah walaupun masih ada tabungan nilai dari ulangan harian, tapi kalau mid lo bener-bener jatoh sejatoh-jatohnya, bakal susah ngangkatnya lagi.... Aduhhh... Ini yang bikin stress, bikin galau...

Dan kalau gini caranya... gimana gua bisa tembus buat daftar SMPTN Jalur Undangan? Dapet 18 besar di kelas aja rasanya kok udah gak mungkin ya (secara kelas gua semuanya pinter banget, dan gua sekarang jadi anak "papan bawah" bukan lagi "papan tengah" bahkan T.T). Gua sekarang lagi pengen bangetttt keterima #FTI ITB 2012 Jurusan Teknik Kimia... Tapi rasanya susahhhh AAAAA :'((( Kalau gua dapet ITB, mau kuliah di mana lagi gua??? Univ swasta sekarang kan mahal-mahal...... T.T Bisa-bisa gak kuliah gua...

Tapi.. di saat-saat begini bokap malah nyuruh gua tenang... Tenang gimana woy, masa depan gua gajelas ini! Mungkin gua masih kurang berdoanya... Novena gua mesti lebih rajin dan gak boleh bolong-bolong! I still believe that God has the best plan for me :) Percaya Tuhan pasti punya rencana yang terbaik buat gua yang ke depannya bakal jadi SESUATU kalo kata Syahrini :3 I just have to wait... Mungkin gua harus lebih banyak tenang, gak panik, gak ngomel-ngomel, dan lebih sering berpikir positif. Karena pikiran positif akan membentuk realita yang positif pula. Guess that I have to do this thing!

"And when I looked into the mirror, I feel like saw a reflection of a girl who has lost her optimism of life. Who has lost the determination to go through the life in many directions. Who even worse, has lost the value of her own journey. Sometimes I'm continually hate myself. Sometimes I regret for what I am, for who I am. Even though it's painful to go over your failure, I will try. I won't give up. Don't you ever lose your optimism."

"For everything there is a season, a time for every activity under heaven." (Ecclesiastes 3 : 1)

P.S : I will keep on struggling biar tembus SMPTN UNDANGAN!!! GANBAREE~~~

Depressed

2011-09-14T21:16:00.001+07:00

At first I want to spill it out all my feelings towards blog. But it suddenly just... gone... Yeah... Don't know what to write here.

And the day after tomorrow, I will have my Biology test. I must not fail anymore. Since I already failed twice on the same subject. BLESS. ME. GOD.

Simply True

2011-09-11T00:02:00.001+07:00

If you wanna succeed, never imitate anybody. Never want to be like somebody. Go on your own

You Won't Realize This As 'Extraordinary'

2011-09-05T19:23:00.005+07:00

--this post is not mine, all credits goes to @INSPIREWEB http://keziagabriellaagusta.blogspot.com/--

A soldier of sorts is diligently fighting the fight so you don’t have to.
Someone who suffered from a severe injury last year is back on their feet.
A small group of people are building something that will soon make the impossible possible.
Somewhere on Earth a double rainbow is stretched from one end of the horizon to the other.
One of the next Billboard-chart-topping musical artists is patiently rehearsing in her garage.
A piece of literature is being written that will eventually change your perspective on life.
Young children all over the world are singing and dancing before they even realize there is anything that isn’t music.
A friend is helping a friend rise above thoughts of suicide.
Someone is thinking what you’re thinking, but hasn’t said anything yet either.
Two people in your hometown are falling in love.
Somewhere someone is admiring a breathtaking sunrise, and somewhere else a surreal sunset.
People of various religious backgrounds are in temples, churches, mosques and other places of worship praying, wholeheartedly, for world peace.
Someone who has struggled with their weight for the last several years is standing on a scale and smiling.
Hundreds of cute elderly couples are celebrating their 50th wedding anniversary.
A baby girl just took her first few steps without falling.
Two best friends are laughing so hard they aren’t even making any noise.
A future world leader is in grade school at recess.
Someone is in the process of sincerely forgiving a seemingly unforgivable act.
There’s a kid studying hard somewhere who aspires to get to where you are in life.
A firefighter is running into a burning building to rescue a perfect stranger.
Someone in your vicinity genuinely wants to be your friend.
A young mom is lying in a hospital bed and holding her newborn baby twins for the very first time.
Someone is taking a shower and singing happily at the top of their lungs.
There is someone out there who smiles when they think of a specific moment they once shared with you.
An alcoholic just celebrated one full year of sobriety.
Volunteers in major cities all over the world are working at homeless shelters caring for those who are less fortunate than themselves.
A young man is pulled over on the side of the road helping a young woman change a flat tire.
A high school athlete just broke her own personal record.
Two teenagers just received their very first kiss ever from each other.
A husband and wife who were drowning in debt five years ago proudly hold a balance of zero on their credit cards.
Someone is hugging a friend who desperately needs it.
A new small business owner just wrapped up his first profitable yearworking for himself.
A grandfather is holding his granddaughter’s hand and they’re both smiling from ear to ear.
Someone just placed their spare change in the charity collection cup at the grocery store.
A small group of friends are sitting around a table sharing funny stories and cheerfully reminiscing about the good old days.
A breast cancer patient just found out her cancer is in complete remission.
Someone out there is missing you and looking forward to your next visit.
Honest people are working for various government entities to help protect your basic human rights and civil liberties.
An emergency room surgeon is in the middle of saving his patient’s life.
Someone is holding the door open for the person behind them.

I think, this is the reason why we never realize what we've got until we lose it. You owe those little things on earth, people. Love whatever you've got in life.

ROBOT

2011-09-04T11:27:00.005+07:00

It's officially. Counting hours to be a ROBOT for like everyday...

Truth be told.. I'm tired for all of this :((

Counting Days to be 18

2011-09-01T09:47:00.002+07:00

Again.. time flies very fast. It's already 1st of September. Counting days to be 18 yrs old on 26th September. I gotta be really really old desu ne? 2 years more before hatachi (20 yrs old) -_______-

And, anyway... since yesterday, I haven't opened my Biology nor my Chemistry book yet -____- Susah ya, padahal niatnya kemarin dan hari ini mau belajar. Tapi nyatanya ... susah dilakukan di hari libur kayak begini. Kartul sih udah lumayan ada progress bab II nya. Tapi buat belajar kok... susah banget ya? :(( Pokoknya bentar lagi harus buka buku. At least baca n nyicil karena minggu depan no more time lagi deh buat belajar berlama-lama. Semua harus dilakukan cepet, gak pake lama.

I think that's all for now :)) I GOTTA STUDY NOWWWWW~~~

I Do Believe...

2011-08-29T12:05:00.001+07:00

"And, when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it."

(Paulo Coelho)

Dream or Don't Dream

2011-08-28T23:09:00.007+07:00

Ah... akhirnya saya bisa nge-post lagi, for like zillion years.... *oke lebay*

Intinya saya bisa berhadap-hadapan lagi dengan "Sho" alias laptop saya yang tercinta :* Lot of things happen for these past two weeks. Dan saya masih saya yang tetap sama, yang masih dirundung galau dan nestapa tiada berakhir tentang masa depan. Rasanya masa depan ini masih samar-samar saja :( Walaupun saya sudah bisa menentukan jurusannya. Saya akhirnya memutuskan untuk mengambil jurusan Teknologi Pangan alias Food Technology. Nah, dan akhirnya... yang masih menjadi sumber kegalauan saya adalah : DI MANA WOY NANTI GUA KULIAHNYA? Lama-lama saya kuliah aja deh di Universitas Terbuka. Murah, gak perlu habisin biaya banyak, gampang kan? Masalah selesai.

Tapi... ini masalah mimpi saya. Sekali lagi, capital M-I-M-P-I. MIMPI. DREAM. YUME (in Japanese) or whatever you call it lah. I'm now currently studying at 12th grade of HIGH SCHOOL. Last year. Senior year. Dan kalau boleh dibilang ini ibarat saya ada di ujung tercapai atau tidaknya mimpi saya. Tapi sayangnya, keadaan yang de-factonya sekarang malah ibaratnya saya lagi di perempatan jalan. Too many risky choices, ya know. Salah-salah saya bisa "ketabrak" dan akhirnya malah gagal sampai di "tempat tujuan" yang saya inginkan. Ada ajaaaa yang menghambat mimpi saya. Dan si penghambat itu tentu saja adalah... masalah finansial.

Rasanya pupus sudah deh mimpi-mimpi dari jaman anak-anak yang pengen banget kuliah di luar negeri... Tapi menghadapi kenyataan kayak gini, saya jadi takut buat mimpi terlalu tinggi. Karena saya tahu mimpi saya kelihatannya hanya akan menjadi sekedar pengharapan belaka, yang gak bakal tercapai :'( Ya contohnya kayak sekarang-sekarang inilah. I've tried to apply a scholarship. Tapi nyatanya sebelum formulirnya diterima sama pihak panitia penyelenggara, saya udah ditolak duluan tuh sama pihak sekolah. Untuk hal ini, saya merasakan banget gak adilnya. Coz there's one person from my school that has accepted for that scholarship .___. How can that person got the permission from school while I'm not? @.@ So unfair lah~ Sampai sekarang saya masih sakit hati dengan penolakan itu. And it has made me a little unconfident for that scholarship-stuff again. Saya takut ditolak untuk kedua kalinya.

Mungkin it will be better for me not to dream yah. Apa orang yang berkemampuan finansial kurang saya emang ditakdirkan untuk gak boleh bermimpi, hah? That's UNFAIR. Sekarang saya jadi tau dan bisa merasakan bagaimana anak-anak Indonesia yang di daerah pedalaman, yang punya segudang mimpi, mereka punya bakat, tapi tak punya kesempatan untuk melanjutkan sekolah. But still, I have to be grateful for what I am now, right? Saya masih bisa sekolah di SMA nomor satu di Jakarta, masih bisa makan enak, masih bisa tidur dengan nyenyak. Mungkin saya yang harus lebih banyak bersyukur dan gak banyak menuntut. Yah, but I try my best to KEEP BELIEVING in A MIRACLE. MIRACLE does exist, right? Siapa tahu ada kesempatan untuk melanjutkan kuliah untuk keluar negeri. Ini cuman masalah waktu. Only God knows :'))

Dan fyi, mimpi saya sejak kecil cuman satu : bisa keliling dunia. Nyatanya? 18 tahun saya hidup pun saya belum pernah sekali pun ke luar negeri. The chance hasn't come yet. Pokoknya, once I got a job in the future, I gotta work very very hard so I can earn a big amount of money. Then I would use it to travel around the world. BEFORE I DIE, I HAVE TO TRAVEL ALL OVER THE WORLD --> IT'S A PROMISE!

Wooosh.. Akhirnya lega banget setelah menumpahkan semua unek-unek di blog ini. Ah, as I predicted, this blog will be my best escape from reality. This blog is the best place to talk to :)) And yeah, I will keep on dreaming, keep on fighting, keep on praying. Walaupun pada akhirnya kalau mimpi itu tak juga tercapai, biarlah mimpi-mimpi itu yang menjadi kekuatan dan nafas tambahan saya untuk terus berjuang melakukan yang terbaik. God knows my dreams and I believe He will grant it for me... SOMEDAY. Because even miracle takes time, right? ^^

P.S : I currently lost my words for my kartul chapter 2. Don't know what to write. The idea still hasn't come yet ._____. I hope tomorrow would be better, and I could finish at least 5 pages of chapter 2. GANBAREEEEE~~~

Now I Know It's TRUE

2011-08-28T21:44:00.004+07:00

"High school friends are FRIENDS FOR LIFE."

And now I know it's 100000% true :'))

Thanks for the memories, best sisters in the world :')))

Dirgahayu ke-66 Indonesia!

2011-08-17T15:52:00.007+07:00

So, this morning me and my friends had a flag ceremony due to our 66th Independence Day. It's bittersweet, though. Our last flag ceremony as a student :)

Here's some pic I took this morning :

Me and Felice with "red-white" body painting on our cheeks :) That's our national flag's colors XD

Random pic of mine...

Using that red-white ribbon ^^

Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my dearest mother-land! Thanks Indonesia for being a home since I was born :') May this country be a better place to live in the future with no religion conflict and corruption.

P.S : I believed a fact that foreigners proud of Indonesia. I'm proud to be Indonesian! :')

Cheers,
xoxo

Ithaca

2011-08-11T21:09:00.000+07:00

When you set out on your journey to Ithaca,
Pray that the road is long,
Full of adventure, full of knowledge.
...The Lestrygonians and the Cyclops,
The angry Poseidon - do not fear them
You will never find such as these on your path
If your thoughts remain lofty, if a fine
Emotion touches your spirit and your body.
The Lestrygonians and the Cyclops,
The fierce Poseidon you will never encounter,
If you do not carry them within your soul,
If your heart does not set them up before you.

Pray that the road is long.
That the summer mornings are many, when,
With such pleasure, with such joy
You will enter ports seen for the first time;
Stop at Phoenician markets,
And purchase fine merchandise,
Mother-of-pearl and coral, amber and ebony,
And sensual perfumes of all kinds,
As many sensual perfumes as you can;
Visit many Egyptian cities,
To learn and learn from scholars.

Always keep Ithaca in your mind.
To arrive there is your ultimate goal.
But do not hurry the voyage at all.
It is better to let it last for many years;
And to anchor at the island when you are old,
Rich with all you have gained on the way,
Not expecting that Ithaca will offer you riches.

Ithaca has given you the beautiful voyage.
Without her you would never have set out on the road.
She has nothing more to give you.
And if you find her poor, Ithaca has not deceived you.
Wise as you have become, with so much experience,
You must already have understood what Ithacas mean.

- Author unknown -

Artwork II

2011-08-07T10:29:00.003+07:00

I'm currently studying how to make a website. And these are two layouts that I made. Comments are appreciated! :)

The teacher haven't taught us about the CSS / coding yet. May be next Saturday. Yeay! I'm very excited! I want to make the second one for this lovely blog! Hope it can come true :)

Rencana Tuhan Selalu Indah

2011-08-07T10:21:00.005+07:00

Ada seorang petani miskin memiliki seekor kuda putih yang sangat cantik dan gagah!! Suatu hari, seorang saudagar kaya ingin membeli kuda itu dan menawar dengan harga yang sangat tinggi. Sayang si petani miskin itu tidak menjualnya. Teman-temannya menyayangkan dan mengejek dia karena tidak menjual kudanya itu.

Keesokan harinya, kuda itu hilang dari kandangnya, maka teman-temannya berkata, "Sungguh jelek nasibmu, padahal jika kemarin kuda itu dijual kamu kaya, tetapi sekarang kudamu sudah hilang". Si petani miskin hanya diam saja ....

Beberapa hari kemudian, kuda si petani kembali bersama 5 ekor kuda lainnya. Lalu teman-temannya berkata, "Wah beruntung sekali nasibmu, ternyata kudamu membawa keberuntungan". Si petani hanya diam saja ....

Beberapa hari kemudian, anak si petani yang sedang melatih kuda-kuda baru mereka, terjatuh dan kakinya patah!! Teman-temannya berkata, "Rupanya kuda-kuda itu membawa sial, lihat sekarang anakmu kakinya patah". Si petani tetap diam tanpa komentar ....

Seminggu kemudian terjadi peperangan di wilayah itu. Semua anak muda di desa dipaksa utk berperang, kecuali si anak petani karena tidak bisa berjalan. Teman-temannya mendatangi si petani sambil menangis, "Beruntung sekali nasibmu karena anakmu tidak ikut berperang, kami harus kehilangan anak-anak kami!!"

PESAN
Janganlah terlalu cepat membuat kesimpulan dengan mengatakan nasib baik atau jelek, semuanya adalah suatu rangkaian proses. Syukuri dan terimalah keadaan yang terjadi saat ini!! Apa yang kelihatan baik hari ini belum tentu baik untuk hari esok. Apa yang buruk hari ini belum tentu buruk untuk hari esok.
Yang pasti .... Tuhan paling tahu yang terbaik buat kita. Bagian kita adalah mengucap syukur dalam segala hal, sebab itulah yang dikehendaki Tuhan.

source : Hidup Baru @ Facebook

A Space to Breath

2011-08-07T09:42:00.003+07:00

Akhirnya... saya bisa nge-blog lagi *nangis terharu*

Akhirnya... hari ini hari minggu... bisa sedikit bernapas lega dari kesibukan 5 hari yang sudah benar-benar di luar batas normal (menurut saya). DERITA ANAK IPA SANUR : setiap hari pulang jam 15.30. 8 jam pelajaran biasa ditambah lagi dengan pelajaran tambahan. Belum lagi ulangan yang menunggu dan PR-PR yang mengantri untuk dikerjakan (dalam satu hari semua guru bahkan bisa ngasih PR). Selain itu, kita WAJIB membuat karya tulis. Untuk kelas saya ditambah lagi dengan beban harus merawat 2 tanaman sekaligus (bayam merah dan bunga white zinnia) :o orz. Gosh, I'm gonna die at a very young age just because all of this......

Seminggu yang bener-bener hectic kemarin saja sudah berhasil membuat saya kena radang tenggorokan dan akhirnya batuk-batuk terus. Sekarang hanya bisa berdoa supaya badan ini tidak K.O dengan kesibukan yang sinting itu -______- Semenjak kelas 12, 1 hari terasa berjalan begitu cepat dan waktu 24 jam pun sudah tak cukup. GYAAAA GUA PENGEN CEPET-CEPET LULUS!!!

Hmm.. sebenarnya banyak sekali yang ingin saya tumpahkan di sini, terutama soal masa depan saya yang seperti terkatung-katung tak jelas nasib dan kelanjutannya. Untuk jurusan kuliah, akhirnya saya sudah putuskan untuk kuliah Teknologi Pangan alias Food Technology (thank God for that). Saya tetep aja keukeuh masih pengen ambil di luar negeri. Tapi... tapi... disuruhnya di Institut Pertanian Bogor. Ya emang sih IPB emang yang terbaik di Indonesia untuk field Agricultural... Ya tapi... tapi... it means I really should give up on my dreams -______- Talking about future always makes me hurt. So let's end this post.

I should do my assignments and finish it!

Keep Striving

2011-07-21T22:51:00.003+07:00

Long time no see, blogger :) I’ve finally come back after my first three days studying as a twelfth grader -______- Being a twelfth grader, sometimes makes me sick, either mentally or physically :( Today I’m going to blab in Bahasa (and a little English). It would be easier for me to convey all my heavy feelings in Bahasa.

So yesterday, I cried during the night. I had a dilemma. No. It’s supposed to be QUATRILEMMA. I was totally GALAU last night. What’s for? I have confusion in whether I take the TOEFL iBT Course or not. Serius, kemarin saya sampai nangis-nangis mewek gak jelas sewaktu diminta mutusin apakah melanjutkan les TOEFL atau nggak. Kenapa saya galau? Masalahnya untuk melanjutkan les itu butuh 5,4 juta untuk 6 bulan! Bayangin dong, ini les selesainya Januari dan baru akan REAL TEST kemungkinan antara bulan Februari sampai Maret. IT’S TOO LONG! Apakah gak kelamaan? Yang ada semua uni luar juga udah selesai buka pendaftarannya~ Udah gitu gak ada jaminan langsung tes benerannya lagi -____- yang ada duitnya diporotin mulu :( Aside from that, I also didn’t like the atmosphere of the previous class. Saya berasa di-anaktiri-kan di situ. Yang diperhatiin selalu yang pinter. Gimana yang kurang mau maju coba kalau gitu. (Lagian yang udah pinter dan nilainya tinggi ngapain les sih? Gak bijaksana banget, buang-buang duit orangtua :()

Nah, gara-gara galau kemarin, sekarang saya jadi takut dan pesimis. For me, it sounds like… SHOULD I JUST GIVE UP ON MY DREAMS TO STUDY ABROAD AND DECIDE TO STAY HERE, IN INDONESIA? Mikirin beginian cuman bikin saya nangis. Sekolah/kuliah ke luar negeri memang sudah jadi impian saya sejak kecil. Sejauh ini saya sudah gagal sekali. Waktu mau meng-apply beasiswa SMA ke Singapura. Tapi, kemarin papa bilang, “Walaupun kamu misalnya nanti bener-bener dapet beasiswa di luar negeri yang full gratis, papa gak yakin bisa biayain kamu untuk hidup sehari-harinya.” Bagaimana rasanya? For the hundred times of my life, saya merasakan lagi gimana mimpi yang sudah saya bangun sejak lama terlihat mau runtuh dan hancur berkeping-keping begitu saja. Seperti Uno-stacko. Saya gak nyalahin kenapa saya dilahirkan dengan orang tua yang kemampuan finansialnya pas-pasan kok. Bukan itu. Di sisi lain, saya ingin sekali mewujudkan mimpi saya, tapi di sisi lain, saya juga kasihan dengan orang tua. Sudah terlalu banyak beban pengeluaran saya yang harus ditanggung mereka sampai saya sebesar ini :( Saya ingin membanggakan papa sekaligus meringankan bebannya (but how?). Bersyukurlah kalian yang orang tuanya mampu biayain sekolah kalian hingga ke luar negeri dengan uang sendiri. Kalian tinggal milih sesuka hati mau universitas di mana, jurusan apa dan selesailah perkara.

Up till now, I have been thinking about my dad’s words last night. Mungkin saya harus sadar dengan realita yang ada ya. Kalaupun saya dapet beasiswa ke luar, apakah papa mampu biayain untuk biaya hidup sehari-hari? Tapi… rasanya saya masih tak bisa terima. Mungkin bener sih if people said, “Jangan berharap terlalu tinggi, nanti kalau jatuh malah sakit banget.”

Back to the TOEFL iBT course matter, I have come with a decision: I WON’T TAKE THAT CLASS, SINCE IT WAS SUCH A WASTE OF TIME + MONEY. If we take the real test, it needs only $170 (much cheaper right than have to attend the class?) Moreover, sekarang saya udah kelas 12. Setiap hari pulang jam 15.30 and I have decided not to burden myself with too much courses. I don’t join Student Assembly during High School (that’s a hard decision, of course) or any extracurricular activities this year. For now, saya cuma ikut les Mafia. Itu pun waktunya fleksibel, sesuka saya. Now, it’s time to be more focused on subjects in the school. I don’t want to be bothered with that course which has a tendency to waste my time and money. I don’t say that TOEFL Course is useless. NO. I can study TOEFL iBT by myself and then take the real test. I hope the result later won’t be that bad. At least I have to reach 81 points :s

Yah… jadi hal-hal semacam itulah yang suka bikin saya galau sekarang. Nangis mewek di kamar malem-malem. Kalau beberapa teman saya galaunya karena cowok, saya justru galau dengan pilihan-pilihan hidup yang kadang sangat beresiko untuk hidup saya ke depannya. I’m 17 going to 18 this September. People said I’ve already entered USIA PANIK zone. I’m still single (and very happy XD) I have no time to get into such a relationship, literally. Temen cowok saya selama SMA aja cuman bisa diitung pake jari, gimana mau cepet dapet pacar coba sih? Lagian, saya sudah punya pacar kok. Banyak malah. Bisa ganti-ganti tiap hari :P (Thanks to JE Boys)

OK, I should end this post, very soon before the topic extent into some unrelated and unimportant things :P

Once again, tentang mimpi-mimpi itu (yang akhir-akhir ini kelihatannya makin rapuh dan siap hancur seperit Uno Stacko). I will keep striving for my dreams, till the end :) Like St. Angela’s said, “Bertekun dan Maju Sampai Akhir” (Y) I do believe, with God’s guidance, everything will go well. I believe that God has already made the best plan for me.

Keep Calm and STRIVE TILL THE END

2011-07-17T22:58:00.005+07:00

Tomorrow... will definitely be the FIRST DAY of my ONE-YEAR-suffering and struggling. Loads of tests, tons of assignments, kartul, UAS, UN, uni-matters and so on. I don't know what to say. I have to be strong in both mentally and physically. Keep calm and STRIVE TILL THE END~ This year is suppose to be my last year to attend Ursuline school. It's been 14 years since my first time entering Ursuline school~ FIGHT! GANBARETSUGO~ You just need to be survived at least for another 9 MONTHS!!!

All I Want to do Now

2011-07-16T23:07:00.004+07:00

I think I'm gonna explode today. I can't stand this circumstance anymore. This is more like... when a teenager rebelled -____- All I want to do now is... TO SCREAM TOWARDS THE OCEANNNNN.... I want to release all of my problems, my sadness, and this agitated feeling~~~ I want TO BE FREE as well as a bird~~~ Fly away from my problems x(

P.S : someone please take me to the a certain place where I could release all my emotional feelings~~~

A Message to Heaven

2011-07-15T21:36:00.004+07:00

Dear Mom,

Today is July 15th. Mom, should you're stay here with me, today would be your 43th birthday :')) HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM! I know you're still there. Up there. In heaven :') Always looking at me and taking care of me :D It's been 5 years since you left me and dad. Time flies, no? Now I'm already in my last year in High School. One more step until I reach the university.
You know mom, sometimes there is time that I missed you so much. I miss your smile, your chatter, and your expression when you scolded me :')

I hope you will be always happy up there :'D
And also, please send my prayer to God, mom :') Hope the best for my karya tulis, ujian sekolah, ujian nasional and also... what major I should take in the university :)

Lastly... I want to present this for you :'))

If I Saw You in Heaven
(Eric Clapton)

would you know my name
if i saw you in heaven
would it be the same
if i saw you in heaven

I must be strong
and carry on
'cause i know i don't belong here in heaven

would you hold my hand
if i saw you in heaven
would you help me stand
if i saw you in heaven

I'll find my way through night and day
'cause I know I just can't stay here in heaven

Time can bring you down
time can bend your knees
time can break your heart
have you beggin' please
beggin' and please

beyond the door there's peace I'm sure
and I know there'll be no more tears in heaven

would you know my name
if I saw you in heaven
would it be the same
if i saw you in heaven

I must be strong
and carry on
'cause i know i don't belong here in heaven

'cause i know i don't belong here in heaven

Mom... if I saw you in heaven... I want to hug you with my biggest and warmest hug, to kiss you and to talk to you about all my problems :')

xoxo, Eugenia

God Give Me Strength

2011-07-13T21:13:00.004+07:00

It's been 3 days since my first day in my senior year. How did ya feel? If I could describe my feeling, I would describe it with 7ICONS's song "Gak... gak... gak kuat... " HAHAHA But it's true. That's the best word that suitable with what I feel now. I'm feeling so weak, exhausted, useless and kind of... all my efforts during my first and second year was being taken for granted. I REGRETTED ENTERING SCIENCE CLASS. I'm not supposed to be in this major, I think. I want to take either Business Administration/Visual Communication Design/Art and Media in the university. So, why do I have to enter Science class? I think it was my biggest mistake :(

But, nevertheless, dad always said that it's not wrong if I entered Science class. You probably burdened by tons of assignments, kartul matters, loads of test, etc. But in the end, you will get the benefit from it. You have to be a definite tough, not to be fragile here. But... HOW? Today I arrived home at 4 pm, after went to the Japan Foundation. Took a nap for 1 hour. And still got a Math homework to do. Gosh~ I'm gonna DIE AT A YOUNG AGE if I still survive in this hectic circumstance :(( Seriously, at this rate, Science class must be killing me softly -______-

Well, am not gonna talk too much here. Gotta go to bed earlier, need to save my energy. Sleep, as long as you can sleep properly. That's my motto for now :) I think during this 12th grade, I will have so many sleepless nights -_____- So sleep, as long as you can sleep properly ;D
And one thing.. tomorrow I gotta settle all things. Hope the topic will be fixed, as soon as possible.

BYE-BYE^^

P.S : God, give me strength. I beg your pardon, O, Lord

XII IPA 1 / 13

2011-07-11T19:48:00.004+07:00

Welcoming my new class :) XII IPA 1 (I still can't believe I'm officially a 12th grader)

Lucky I got the same class with some of my besties :D I'M SO HAPPY 'BOUT THAT *thank God you granted my wish* Another good thing was that I didn't get the same class with the genius one *you-know-who*. At least it wouldn't make me too depressed, at all :D At first, I thought this class was okay and the homeroom teacher was nice too. I hope so :D

And anyway... XII IPA 1 / 13 --> it's lucky THIRTEEN \o.o/ God, why thirteen? I just hope that this number will bring me A BUNCH OF LUCK for this whole one year ^^

About being a twelfth grader... ah~ It's can't be described. So many stuffs you have to think more seriously. Time really flies, no? It felt like yesterday I just passed my first day in eleventh grade, but now, I'm already in my senior year. No more parties, no more 'hebeh-hebeh'. Just one more year in High School. I hope I could create many best memories to be remembered with my friends :') Let's enjoy our last year in High School! Don't forget to study hard, pray hard and also... PLAY HARD hahah :D Just let it flow ;)

GIVE YOUR BEST SHOTS IN EVERYTHING YOU DO!

STOP DREAMING, START EXECUTING~~~
*your dream is just one step further than now on, Nia^^ ganbareeeee!!!*

Prepare My Mind and Heart

2011-07-10T18:29:00.004+07:00

Kay. IT'S OVER. HOLIDAY IS OVER. Tomorrow I gotta go to school (again) for like 3856 times in my life -_____- I'm officially 12th grader *sigh* Just another one year before I finally reach university. Gonna be my last year being in the Ursuline school :( I SHOULD enjoy all this-one-year to the fullest. But the question is : CAN I?

New class, definitely. I think I will never get a class like PASTA anymore :( PASTA might be not my best class, but so far, this class fits me best :'D. I love you girls, our randomness + baka-ness + craziness. Gonna miss this class so much~~~

Well, I don't want to expect too much for my new class. I just think that my school is the expert for making our nerve got wracked :( Sh*t, I might have to bear with the loneliness again. Hate all of these circumstances~

I'd better prepare my mind and heart. Stop playing around too much. Stop doing unnecessary things. Study hard. Give your every best efforts in anything you do. Stay away from laziness. Focus on my dreams. START EXECUTING MY DREAMS TO GET MY DREAM UNIVERSITY. And the most important is don't forget to pray to God~~

Short Updates

2011-07-09T21:53:00.008+07:00

Some new stuffs I got during this holiday :

Finally.. my first brand new Android phone! It's Xperia X10 Mini :) I have to say that this small phone is very SUPER. I could do many activities which I can't when I used the old Sony Ericsson one :D And the Wi-Fi facilities makes me like... WOAHHH for the first time :))
P.S : I already named it Tego >.<

All the specification can be seen here : http://www.sonyericsson.com/cws/corporate/products/phoneportfolio/specification/xperiax10mini

And...

My new hair cut! >.<
OMG I look very chubby there... Geeshh..
The hairstylist said that it is Japanese style, but I still didn't believe. It looks awful on me T.T

What do you think???

Lastly...

A new wristwatch!

It's soft blue which is my favorite color! Yeay~~

That's all for short updates. Gonna turn off this laptop bcos of the critical battery.
GOOD NIGHT~~~

How to Cure This Loneliness

2011-07-08T11:32:00.005+07:00

credits : deviantArt

Basically, I am not the type of anti-social person, nor the person who easily feeling lonely. Literally. I AM NOT. But recently, I am easily feeling lonely even in a crowded place. Don't ask me why. I really know that loneliness has the power to destroy your social life and your self-confidence -____- And according to allaboutlifechallenges.org, loneliness is an intense feeling of being deserted or abandoned by everyone. If left untreated, loneliness can lead to other problems such as depression, feelings of uselessness, and lack of self-worth.

OMG. That's so true. I sometimes feel ignored by people around me. Is it just my feelings or not, I don't know. Peer pressure is tough too :( I want to get out from this loneliness feelings. Soon, very very soon. I don't want to be a loner.

Well, I just think that I am not alone. I am not the only one experiencing this phase of life, right? There are millions like me out there. I have to step out of my comfort zone, trying to mingle with everyone, not just my best friends. But ... but ... that will be difficult, at least for me, since everyone has their own GROUPS which probably will be hard for someone to get in -_____-

So maybe, I need to change my thought pattern. I must start listening to uplifting music, or read inspirational writing. So far, when I feel lonely, these two activity tend to ease my feelings of loneliness and back to the normal. ARASHI, NewS, Tegomass and other JE's songs are THE BEST MEDICINE FOR ME! And more importantly, I have to avoid negative thoughts. Start thinking about many positive things. BE POSITIVE :D

Just now, I read allaboutlifechallenges.org, and I can summarize about feeling lonely, like this :
While trying to fight loneliness, we sometimes convinced ourselves that nobody cares us anymore, right? I also feel this way. Unfortunately, this belief might makes you more feeling lonely. However, your every effort made, even though it's just a little, does mean a lot to someone. A simple 'thank you' to your servant, a smile for your teachers or friends or an accompany towards a blind man. These gestures might be insignificant to you. In fact, it is a significant for their lives. So, don't worry if people don't care about you, because you're mean the world for them. It's okay if your existence is in a hidden way. Don't be ashamed for that. It is important for universe, nowadays.

To conclude, being lonely is essential to understand the worth of a good company. As for me, I will know who is my real BEST FRIEND through this loneliness. Take your loneliness as a challenge and deal with it upfront!

Credits : allaboutlifechallenges.org

Well, out of topic, I am now thinking to..... SEARCH FOR A BOYFRIEND WHO CAN CURE ME FROM THIS LONELINESS~ hahaha (kayak ada aja yang mau jadi pacar lu, ni! LOL)

Improvement Begins with I

2011-07-07T21:50:00.001+07:00

credits : thingsweforget@bs

Introducing : My Hamster^^

2011-07-06T09:19:00.009+07:00

*ROFL*

AAA CUTE SHO (L)

OMG OMG Cuteness overload here

What's with that flashy yet colorful glasses? LOL

This hamster is AS HOT AS FIRE (y)

*brb dies*

I have to say... This HAMSTER (read : SAKURAI SHO) is ridiculously HANDSOME from every damn angle with any expression!!! Will be forever in love with this guy :D

Boredomness

2011-07-06T08:58:00.003+07:00

Some random meme. Forgot to credit *sorry*

1) Have you ever been asked out?
Yes.

2) Where did you get your profile picture?
At my room.

3) What's your middle name?
I don't have. There are only first and surname :)

4) Your current relationship status?
Single and happy.

5) Does your crush like you back?
Tegoshi, would you like me back, huh? xD

6) What is your current mood?
Bored.

7) What color is your hair?
Pure black.

8) What color shirt are you wearing?
Purple and white colored.

9) Missing something?
School?

10) If you could go back in time and change something, what would you change?
There are tons of things that I want to change. For example, my personality and attitude, and my appearance.

11) If you must be an animal for one day, what?
A hamster, pls?

12) Ever had a near death experience?
Nope.

13) Something you do a lot?
reading some books, watching JDoramas, blogging and postcrossing

14) The song stuck in your head?
Aoi Bench - Tegomass!

15) Who did you copy and paste this from?
One random blog.

16) Name someone with the same birthday as YOU?
Serena William

17) When was the last time you cried?
I………don’t know.

18) Have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
Yeah. When I was in my kindergarten and elementary school, I used to sing a lot in front of a large audience.

19) If you could have one super power what would it be?
To make EVERYTHING is free, easy to do and get, and unlimited for me.

20) What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Face? Eyes?

21) What do you usually order from starbucks?
Coffee!

22) What's your biggest secret?
Don't have any.

23) Favorite color?
Blue, Pink, Purple

24) Do you still watch kiddie shows?
Of course ^^

25) What are you?
I’m a scatterbrained-dreamer girl, an amateur blogger, a professional deadliner and a certified fangirl of Johnny's Entertainment :)

26) Do you speak any other language?
Yes.

27) What's your favorite smell?
Something flowery.

28) Describe your life in one word what would it be?
COMPLICATED? lol :D

29) What are you thinking about right now?
How to get rid of this damn boredomness...

30) What should you be doing?
Sleeping... or continue to watch some dramas or brainstorming about my kartul stuff.

33) Who was the last person that made you upset/angry?
No one.

34) What is your natural hair color?
BLACK.

35) Who was the last person to make you cry?
No one.

TOMBOYISH OR GIRLY? (Bold the ones you are)

YOUR GUY SIDE:

You love hoodies.
You love jeans.
Dogs are better than cats.
It's hilarious when people get hurt.
You've played with/against boys on a team.
Shopping is torture.
Sad movies suck.
You own/ed an X-Box.
Played with Hotwheel cars as a kid.
At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
You own/ed a DS, PS2 or Sega.
You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
You watch sports on TV.
Gory movies are cool.
You go to your dad for advice.
You own like a trillion baseball caps.
You like going to high school football games.
You used to/do collect football/baseball cards.
Baggy pants are cool to wear.
It's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
Sports are fun.
Talk with food in your mouth.
Sleep with your socks on at night.
You prefer rubber shoes and chuck tailors rather than high heels, doll shoes and sandals.

Total: 12

YOUR GIRL SIDE:

You wear lip gloss/stick. ( once in a while )
You love to shop.
You wear eyeliner.
You wear the color pink
Go to your mom for advice.
You consider cheerleading a sport.
You hate wearing the color black.
You like hanging out at the mall.
You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
You like wearing jewelry. ( a ring or earring, that all )
Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
You don't like the movie Star Wars.
You were in gymnastics/dance.
It takes you around/ more one hour to shower, get dressed, and make-up.
You smile a lot more than you should.
You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
You care about what you look like.
You like wearing dresses when you can.
You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne.
You love the movies.
Used to play with dolls as little kid.
Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy/joke of it.
Like being the star of every thing

Total: 5

LOL with this. Probably I'm too BOYISH (Y)

BOLD What’s TRUE

It’s night right now.
There’s something else you should be doing at the moment.
You ate chicken today.
You are lactose intolerant.
There’s a nearby TV on.
You get along with your neighbors.
Twilight is a horrible series.
You’re hungry right now.
You have worked out today.
Running a mile sounds awful.
You have a job.
You love to bake Christmas cookies.
Your parents are still together.
You woke up before 11 this morning.
Baths are better than showers.
You are 5’5” or shorter.
You hate British accents.
Victoria’s Secret is a good store.
Cats are better than dogs.
The 90’s sucked.
Your cell phone is right next to you.
Your favourite colour is either blue or purple.
Your hair is short.
You are by yourself right now.
The last thing you drank was water.
You’re in your PJ’s right now.
Your hair color is natural.
Fred from Youtube is annoying.
You don’t drink soda.
There’s at least $20 in your wallet.
It’s cold out.
Orange juice is better than Apple juice.
You love someone right now.
Video games are awesome.
Your sheets are white.
You have read works by Shakespeare before.
You’ve been professionally diagnosed with a psychological disorder.
You know someone in the hospital right now.
You’ve showered today.
You know someone who has beaten cancer.
Sneakers are your favorite shoes to wear.
Chocolate is better than vanilla. <-- LIES
You’re allergic to peanuts.
You’ve never been to New York City.
You’ve never been on a varsity sports team.
You want to go to Europe. <-- F*CKING WANT!
You’re using a laptop right now.
Plastic surgery is a good idea.
Vanilla is the best scent a girl can wear.
You’ve made yourself throw up.
You have cheated on someone before.
Your friends do drugs.
School is too early.
Your nails/toe nails have nail polish on them right now.
You’re Italian.
You have a tan right now.
You bite your nails.
You’ve been on a diet before.
You shop in plus sized clothing stores.
Hot Topic is scary.
There are socks on your feet right now.
You’ve used a hair straightener.
Shopping online is easier than shopping in an actual store.
You’re in Verizon’s network.
Cheesecake is delicious.
Your BMI falls into the overweight category.
You have gotten your hair cut in the past month.
Your birthday is within the next 2 months.
You’ve been rejected.
Comedies are better than action films.
Math is the best subject.
You are fluent in more than one language.
You love Greek food.
You consider yourself a picky eater.
You have more than 3 pillows on your bed.
You live with at least one parent.
You’re happy right now.
You are a high school graduate.
You have a pet cat.
You were born before April 5th, 1991.
You have brown hair.
You have blue eyes.
You are in a relationship.
You can count to 20 in another language.
You have studied a foreign language.
You voted in the 2008 presidential election.
You own a vehicle that is older than a 2004.
You have worked 3rd shift.
You have worked in a fast food restaurant.
You drove somewhere that was further than a half hour away today.
You live in New Jersey.
You live in Montana.
You live in Pennsylvania.
Your last name begins with an ‘M’.
Your middle name begins with a ‘C’.
Your first name begins with an ‘S’.
You are older than 19.
You are younger than 16.
You are an only child.
Your parents are divorced.
Your parents are not married, but together.
You have more than one sibling.
You are a vegetarian.
You have a gym membership.
You are in the military.
You have a relative in the military.
You have been to Canada.
You have been to Mexico.
You have been to Europe.
You are currently enrolled in college/university.
You have done something you told yourself you wouldn’t.
You have braces.
You wear contact lenses.
You have a tattoo on your ankle.
You have a tattoo on your wrist.
You have a tattoo on your lower back.
You have a tattoo on your upper arm.
You have a lip piercing.
You have a tongue piercing.
You have your nipples pierced.
You have your cartilage pierced.
You have curly hair.
You have received flowers from someone in the last 2 months.
You are engaged.
You are married.
You have children.
You are an aunt or uncle.
Your bedroom walls are blue.
Your bedspread is red.
Your bedroom carpet is beige.
You have been out to eat at a sit-down restaurant in the last week.
You have been drunk in the past 24 hours.
You have lost your virginity before you turned 16.
You are bisexual.
You watch Scrubs. You watch Jon & Kate Plus 8.
You watch American Idol.
You Watch Glee.
You have been to the movies within the last month.
You have cursed in front of your grandparents.
You had a lunch box with a cartoon character on it when you were little.
You actually pay attention to politics.
You have kissed someone within the last week.
You have kissed three or more people in the past year.
You were told you looked cute today.
You were hugged today.
Your best friend is the opposite sex.
You had a date to prom.
You are a good speller.
You are always on time.
You have done something illegal within the last 24 hours.
You have ridden an elevator within the last 3 days.
You have spent the night at someone else’s house within the last 2 weeks.
You have been out of the country within the last year.
You love Chinese food.
You love Italian food.
You love Mexican food.
You love country music.
You love rap.
You love hip hop.
You love punk rock.
You love hard rock.
You love metal.
You love classic rock.
You love bluegrass.
You love oldies.
You love techno.
You love instrumental music.
You know someone younger than 10 who passed away. :’(
You have taken pictures of yourself just because you were bored.
You have been in a car wreck.
You have had stitches.
You have a parent who is a teacher.
You have a savings account.
You currently have a $2 bill in your possession.
You have dated someone who was 2 years younger than you.
You have dated someone who was 2 years older than you.
You have broken up with someone for someone else.
You have been cheated on.
You are Catholic.
You are Mormon.
You are Buddhist.
You wish at 11:11.
You have had your current job for more than 3 months.
You have had your heart broken.
You broke someone else’s heart.
You felt bad about it.
You have done something just for the fact that you were old enough to.
You have been to a cemetery at midnight.
You have been a vampire for Halloween.
You have been a witch for Halloween.
You have been a pumpkin for Halloween.
You have stayed up for 48 hours straight.
You have been to walmart in the past 3 days.
You own a pair of scrubs.
You own a cowboy hat.
You own a leather coat.
You are missing someone right now.
You have been let down recently.
You have had someone you thought you could trust betray you.
You would rather have a one-night stand than a relationship.
You would rather win $500 from the lottery, than guest on a game show.
You have met someone famous.

Postcrossing Project

2011-07-05T11:17:00.012+07:00

Currently www.postcrossing.com has been the only site I'm addicted to. This website has the tagline 'send a postcard and receive a postcard back from a random person somewhere in the world'. I coincidentally found this awesome website from blogwalking activity which I usually do. Apparently, this postcrossing project has also been a trend among my friends :) They have joined this site much more earlier than me. I've already joined for about 1 month.

So far, I've sent 4 postcards to Thailand, China, Finland and Netherlands. And received 2 postcards from Netherlands and USA. I was a stamp-collector. I have up to 250 stamps (thanked Mom, for being kind to me :D ). And now, I think I will be the next postcard collector. It's a nice thing, right?

Below are two postcards from Andrea (id : catmom) - US and Paul (id : ouwe) - Netherlands

A pic from a maritime museum in Los Angeles (from US)

A boy in painting (from Netherlands)

And this is the postcard that I sent to Yvonne from Netherlands (id : toverfee199)

Mummified War God in Papua

(believe it or not, it's been favourited about 4 times *yeay*)

And this is some sneak-peek from my profile in postcrossing.com

I thanked God because I found this amazing website. And I also have to say that I'm lucky : my school is precisely located beside the central Post Office in Pasar Baru. It makes everything easier (to buy the stamp and to send the postcard). For me, Postcrossing Project is an another simply way to promote our country to the world. From the postcard, we can show to other people in other countries, our own culture, landscape, unique places, buildings, and so on. You can write about yourself, your country's culture or a phrase in your language to other people all over the world. Not only that, but also you can write some random quotes to give that people more spirit. You can write anything in the postcard.

In this globalization era, distance isn't the problem anymore. You can talk to the people who live million miles away far from you via social website, chat provider, Skype, etc. We live and travel in a world of instant information.

In contrast, postcard needs a lot of time to be arrived to your hand. It's not instant. I don't know what a postcard means for people nowadays (since the technology has occupied almost all field of life), but getting a postcard from an erratic stranger from somewhere in the world is fascinating! Waiting for a postcard to be arrived at your home thrills me for sure~ Not to mention, the sensation while you're writing the postcard... it's undescribable (you have to try it!)

And at least for me, it's very amazing to see people (who have different backgrounds than your own)'s handwriting :) Like this one :

Postcrossing is definitely has so many advantages and gives you new experiences. You can collect stamps and postcards, promote your country and having a bunch of new pen friends from all over the world! Interested? You should better join this project and spread a tiny postcard from Indonesia to all over the world~

P.S : For Indonesian fellas, you just need approx. IDR 8.000 (3.000 for the postcard and 5.000 for the stamp) to send A POSTCARD abroad.

This Old Man is ... LOVE ^^

2011-07-05T08:36:00.003+07:00

This pictures below will show you how SILLY and DORKY this 30-year-old-man xD
And I'm in love with him^^

LOL that face >.<

*heart*

That's so gay O.O

ROFL

*speechless*

Yep, that's right

He's SATOSHI OHNO *who aged backwards*

OMG~

2011-07-05T08:14:00.005+07:00

Found this at Valerie's blog~ That was the release dates for Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows Part 2...

I was like....

Oh my God~ HOW ON EARTH THIS THING COULD HAPPEN?!!! It's THE FINAL PART which all people all over the world have been waiting for and it won't be released in Indonesiaaa, so I have to go to that countries on the list in a mere watch that movie?

Hello, Indonesian government, this is how you say "Holywood movies will be come back soon" ??

-_________________-

Morning Light

2011-07-04T12:17:00.005+07:00

It's definitely my favorite from their newest album "Beautiful World". And in fact, all songs in this album are surprisingly BEAUTIFUL~~~ I'm really proud to have them as my major idol~ They proved it through their 12 years existence. Yeay for ARASHI!

They are all look gorgeous in the booklet album, aren't they?

MORNING LIGHT
by : Arashi

時は満ち足り, go right now
目指すは遥か, promise land

星も見えないこの空に問いかけた
あの日の約束続きが見たいから

君がいつか知りたがってたエピローグ
走り続けて見つけたのは shining star

Through the night　To the light　To the morning light
また会う場所まで
どんな夜の未知も越え　走り抜ける
I know　開く瞳だけに映る夜明け前の darkness
星が空に帰る頃　行方照らしている morning light

時は満ち足り, go right now
目指すは遥か, promise land

分かっていたんだ　いつの日か旅立つって
一言「さよなら」言えずに飛び出した

小さいころ怖がった夢の迷路
探して続けて見つけたのは guiding star

Through the night　To the light　To the morning light
明日は必ず
どんな長い未知も越え　たどり着ける
今古い地図は捨てて進め動き出した future
きっとずっと忘れない　太陽にまた追いついても

朝を待つ花のように　まるで永遠を知るように
僕らは見つめている　想いを握りしめて

Through the night　To the light　To the morning light
明日は必ず
どんな長い未知も越え　たどり着ける

Through the night　To the light　To the morning light
また会う場所まで
どんな夜の未知も越え　走り抜ける
I know　開く瞳だけに映る夜明け前の darkness
星が空に帰る頃　行方照らしている morning light

時は満ち足り, go right now
目指すは遥か, promise land

Translation :

MORNING LIGHT

The time is right, go right now
Aim for the distance, the promise land

I asked a question to this sky that I can't see any stars in
Because I want to see the continuation of the promise from that day

The epilogue you wanted to know someday
What you found when you kept running was a shining star

Through the night　To the light　To the morning light
To the place we'll meet again
Overcome the unknown, no matter the night　Run through it
I know　The darkness before the dawn that reflects only on those open eyes
The stars in the sky when I go home　The morning light that is shining the way

The time is right, go right now
Aim for the distance, the promise land

I knew it would happen　Declaring one day I would start a journey
I rushed away without being able to say a single good-bye

In a maze of the dreams that scared me when I was a kid
What I found when I kept searching was a guiding star

Through the night　To the light　To the morning light
There's definitely a tomorrow
Overcome even the longest of the unknown　I'll finally arrive there
Throw away that old map now and go forward to the future that has started moving
I'll definitely never forget　Even if I catch up to the sun again

Like the flowers that wait for the morning　As if they know of eternity
We're gazing at them　While holding on tightly to our memories

Through the night　To the light　To the morning light
There's definitely a tomorrow
Overcome even the longest of the unknown　I'll finally arrive there

Through the night　To the light　To the morning light
To the place we'll meet again
Overcome the unknown, no matter the night　Run through it
I know　The darkness before the dawn that reflects only on those open eyes
The stars in the sky when I go home　The morning light that is shining the way

The time is right, go right now
Aim for the distance, the promise land

credits goes to yarukizero@LJ

Acrophobia

2011-07-04T07:46:00.008+07:00

Everyone must has their own weaknesses, right? There are some people who are afraid of dark, bugs, any particular animals, or maybe ghosts? :) We call it : phobia

phobia
–noun

a persistent, irrational fear of a specific object, activity, or situation that leads to a compelling desire to avoid it.

Well, yeah... I have to admit that I have (probably an acute) ACROPHOBIA. You know what is it, right? Acrophobia is the most common phobia of someone, in my opinion. About 2 to 5 percents of the population have this kind of phobia. According to wikipedia.com, acrophobia is an EXTREME or irrational fear of heights. Acrophobic can experience a panic attack in a high place and become too agitated to get themselves down safely --> damn, it's true~~

When I stuck in a certain (very) high place, suddenly I feel like my head spin around when I try to look down. This happens mostly when I was involved in an outbound activities. Gosh, I'm gonna despise this kind of activities~ Believe it or not. I will stop and take a rest in every post~~~ My head is always spinning and suddenly I will feel dizzy.

Not only in outbound activities, but also in an amusement park --> at that place, there will be so many games, that mostly of them are located in a high place, right? Okay, let's go to the point --> I do HATE roller-coaster. Never in my life, I try those kind of games~ It's scary afterall. Why? Besides I have an acrophobia, be in a roller coaster always makes me feeling sick. You know, I can't stand the gravity~ That "light" sensation when the roller coaster goes down (after it goes up little by little) definitely makes me feel me nauseous and sick~~~ My bodily fluids and internal organs are pulled downwards and it's awkward :(( So... if you go with me to the amusement park, please, let me play the safety one! Or else you gotta kill me because of high~~~

That thing is FORBIDDEN in my lifeeeee
Will NEVER try to ride it!

This acrophobia has come with me since I was young. Maybe I inherited it from my father. It's in my genes~ Frankly speaking, my father is much worse than me. He rejected to ride the escalator if we go to a particular mall. He would choose to ride an elevator even though we just only want to go one floor upwards~~ See? I'm still stronger than him xD xD xD

And ah, by the way. This person may suffered from an acute acrophobia too :

SAKURAI SHO xD

He was keep screaming "STOP SHAKING IT!!!!" while Jun shook the wood xD

Silly Oh-chan~~ How on earth he could do that???

And.. this was me *surprisingly made an unnecessary peace-sign while I was doomed because of this acrophobia*

P.S : I'm now just hoping that this acrophobia is not getting any worse (Y)

Magical Banana

2011-07-03T20:54:00.002+07:00

Magical Banana

Nino: If you say banana, I think yellow.
Aiba: If you say yellow, I think traffic light.
Sho: If you say traffic light, I think pedestrian crossing.
Jun: If you say pedestrian crossing, I think black and white.
Ohno: If you say black and white, I think panda.
Nino: If you say panda, I think China.
Aiba: If you say China, I think pollution.
Sho: *laughs*

*Aiba, why so epic???*

source : http://lolarashi.tumblr.com/page/4

Fangirling and Real Life Needs to be BALANCE

2011-07-03T16:09:00.009+07:00

Today, I browsed to some of my friend blogs. Well, a post that caught my attention is about... being a fangirl. And it makes me inspired now, to write about this thing. Hmm, I think this 'sacred' word has occupied my mind.. for at least these 3 past year. I currently being a fangirl for Johnny's Entertainment. They are : Arashi, NewS, Tegomass and Hey! Say! JUMP! But fortunately, I won't let this 'expensive yet a' habit scatter TOO MUCH on my blog.

Reading some old entries of my blog... My blog supposed to be full of optimism and cheerfulness. Two thing that owned myself 3 years ago. Before I studying at my current all girl high school which drives me crazy and sometimes feeling lonely. Not because of the tons of assignment.... I have to say it's about friend. Peer pressure is tough -_____- I sometimes bash people at the back, I'm really sorry. It only because they don't even show a respect for me. I despise those hatred gaze towards me. Is it wrong to idolize Japanese idols, Japanese songs, Japanese dramas? I know that it'll be weird to talk about fandom that not all people know... But please, show me a little respect to my taste.

Everyone has their own taste, right? And my choice goes to Japanese Pop Culture. Why? You guys don't like it? You call me a freak, then? It's up to you~ I just wonder why people like us, the fangirl of (mostly) JPop fandom has to be called as a "freak"? Hey, we all have something we like or even to be obsessed, right? Why don't let us to fangirling for a while? Moreover, fangirling is not disturbing other people. I think it's okay to fangirling, but please don't go overboard.

Recently, there is Korean wave, which is very fenomenal yet attractive in every country. Including Indonesia. Even my classmates go crazy because of Korean stars. In fact, this fandom wasn't very popular back then. But now, Korean fandom takes over Japanese fandom and so so many people start to like it. Something you have to know that people in this fandom still like to bash minor fandom and claim that their fandom is the best.

This is the reason why I prefer Jpop to KPop. Until now I still don't get what's so attractive from Korean male idol? (for this, I'm really sorry to KPop fans *everyone has their own taste* --> so no offense, this is just opinion).

When I watched KPop boybands performing their song, I found that they are all the same for every boyband. Their music style, their dance movement and their concept of music videos are alike and similar~~~ I have to say that! You should realize that too~ Unlike JPop boybands, they are look different each other. You could spot the difference! While Arashi has a wide range of musical style (they can cover pop, ballad or even the techno one!), NewS has more relaxing and cheerful melody. While Tegomass has a cute melody yet the lyric, JUMP creates more youthful melody :) But, for this reason Korean melody is more catchy and attractive --> I ADMIT THIS! That's why people are tend to choose KPop.

About the lyrics... I have to admit that JPop wins :) *no-offense pls* I try to be objective. I do learn Japanese in my school. But that doesn't mean Korean language is bad. NOT THAT! I mean the meaning of the lyric. I found that most of Japanese songs have a good meaning behind their songs. Its lyric always makes me feel more encouraged and more spirited, somehow. Like when I was down, I listen to Arashi's Hatenai Sora (Endless Sky), because in Hatenai Sora, they're telling you that even when you're in a sadness or pain, there still will be an endless sky above you that offers you a chance to hope towards a better life and let you to dream of something :) When I was in happy situation, I tend to listen NewS's Weeek or even Koi no ABO. These two songs make me feel more and more spirited yet tension up! It's good right? That's why I prefer Japanese songs because of this main reason. Note: people who like Japanese songs or even Japanese dramas are smart and a good obsever because they like to analyze the meaning behind every lyrics or scenes :))

Last thing about fangirl stuffs. Okay. I'm not going to turn this post to be a Jpop vs Kpop post :)) Korean male is more handsome and attractive than Japanese male? Oh, yes. I admit that. But, but~~~ Handsome is relative, right? In every country, the definitinon of HANDSOME might be different. For Middle-East countries, man with beard and moustache would probably be called handsome, right? Unlike our country, man with that looks (beard and moustache) probably scares us hahaha :)) It is the same. We can't say Japanese male idols are ALL ugly. It's relative and it depends to our own taste.

So, FANGIRLING = FREAK? Please don't say that. Every people must have their own idol, right? Same goes with us, with me. But, fangirling is just a kind of activities that allows us to be more intensively knowing about our idol. Mind that! We are NOT FREAK. We are just too obsessed with our idol. Freak is a word that... undefineable and once again, it's relative, I think :/

About fangirling... It affects me in two side : positive and negative sides.
Because of fangirling, I know a lot of Japanese words and phrases. This thing helps me doing well on my Japanese class :) I once got 100 for Japanese in my report card. Besides that, from Japanese dramas that I've watched, I've learnt so many things : mostly about the value of life. Japanese dramas are very very good and recommended. They do have a lot of various theme :) Unlike, Indonesian TV dramas (honestly, it's very boring and not giving you a new lesson because the story is just always the same : a child who got lost from his/her parents since baby, a poor girl who is in a relationship with a rich boy, seizure of property, etc.). And more importantly, I also have some new friends that share the same interest with me.

But.. fangirling is also a bad habit. It's expensive. Why? I sometimes spend a lot of my money to buy their CD's, DVD's, uchiwa or even their pictorial book. You might think I'm too loyal for this kind of thing. But, the fact is I'm obsessed with it. Childish, yes. Another negative side is... it is restless. In a holiday, I usually spend more than 6 hours in front of my laptop watching JDorama. Dad once scolded me about this before I caught go to bed at 3 a.m in the morning. He protested and told me not to buy any of their CDs. It's too bad... But I do think that my dad is right, literally.

I think I've spent too much time in FANGIRLING. I need to go back in my REAL LIFE soon. Very very soon. Lucky, my school business didn't get distracted because of my fangirling habit. My score was beyond good *Thank God, for that*

Now, the matter is about BALANCE. You need to be balanced between your REAL LIFE and your FANGIRL LIFE. So far, when school's getting haptic, I just spend my time in Saturday and Sunday morning to fangirling. You can still fangirling as much as you like but... you have also think about stuffs in real life that are more important than being too obsessed with you fangirl life.

On this July 11th, I'm officially become a 12th grader. A year more, I will be a college student. I better stop playing around, and start thinking more seriously about my future. So, I think this holiday will be the last time for me to geeking over my fandom, to watch as many as JDrama that I can watch.

And more importantly, 2 months from now on, I'm gonna be 18. Time flies really fast :( I have to be more mature. I won't let fangirling occupy my real life. There are a lot of things in real life that I should more care. To socialize more, I guess. It's a way better than sitting for hours in front of your laptop doing nothing and sink too deeply in the endless fantasy. In the age of 18, I think it's the time to wake up of my dream. Stop dreaming, start executing your dream~

I have to be more smart in manage my time, so I can do and finish all the stuff (kartul matters, university stuffs, and lots of tests) well. I still don't know what I want to be in future, my future looks unclear :( I will give my best effort and pray for God's guidance.

P.S : just pretend this post as a precaution that I'm gonna leave my fandom for a little while very soon and take a rest from all of my obsession towards JE Boy :/

P.P.S : from this post towards, I think I will use English as my main :) I will try my besttttt in order to improve my writing skill

Welcoming July

2011-07-01T13:07:00.005+07:00

Well yeah. Today's gonna be a very very short post. Time flies too fast. It's been July so far. Eleven more days before the school begins :( I just hope I can do my best in this month.
BE MORE SPIRITED!

Short update : just received 2 postcards in a row from Netherlands and US (gonna talk about this later, on the next post :))

Kalau Rezeki Gak Bakal ke Mana :)

2011-06-30T21:10:00.008+07:00

Seperti biasa, hari ini saya berkeliaran di Twitter. Menyimak pembicaraan orang-orang di timeline. Bahkan terkadang "mengkepo" profile Twitter seseorang. Tiba-tiba ada tweet seperti ini di timeline saya :

Bagaimana reaksi Anda? Akuilah, sebagai manusia biasa yang tak sempurna, pasti niat (garis bawahi) untuk tidak mau memberitahu informasi itu kepada teman ada kan walau sedikit? Tweet ini benar-benar membuat saya tersentak dan sadar akan hal yang buruk ini. Saya pernah 'hampir' melakukan hal ini. Tidak mau berbagi informasi beasiswa dengan orang lain.

Saya ingat dengan peristiwa 2 tahun lalu. Di mana saya dan teman saya sama-sama berjuang untuk mendapatkan beasiswa SMA ke Singapore. Jadi, awalnya saya yang mengetahui informasi bahwa ASEAN membuka scholarship untuk lulusan SMP. Mulanya, saya berniat untuk diam-diam dan tidak memberitahu siapapun. Tapi, setelah mencoba berjuang sendirian mengisi formulir, rasanya hati ini gak tenang. Dan akhirnya, saya telepon teman saya untuk memberitahukan info itu. Kami pun saling mendiskusikan seputar beasiswa itu. Sampai-sampai deg-degan bareng nunggu pengumumannya. Namun sayang, kami berdua malah tak lolos ke tahap selanjutnya. Dan akhirnya saya tetap melanjutkan SMA di Jakarta *untunglah kami berdua gagal, kalo gak yang ada malah iri-irian satu sama lain *evil smirk* *

Nah, hal ini yang ingin saya bahas sekarang. Kenapa ya kita kadang-kadang jadi egois dan tidak mau berbagi info penting dengan orang lain?

cuman satu : takut kalah dengan teman

Menurut saya, mungkin inilah satu-satunya alasan utama kenapa kadang kita sulit berbagi dengan orang lain, dalam konteks ini adalah info beasiswa. Kita takut kalau kita kasih tau, nanti malah kita yang gagal, dan orang itu yang berhasil dapet beasiswa. Iya kan?

Kawan, hal ini juga yang pernah saya rasakan. Saya takut nanti malah saya yang gagal dan teman itu yang dapet beasiswa. Kita takut kalah dengan teman sendiri. Tapi, kita perlu buka mata. Saingan kita dalam mendapatkan beasiswa tidak cuman teman kita saja. Banyak sekali saingan yang mungkin lebih hebat daripada kita dan teman kita sendiri. Jadi, tidak mau berbagi info beasiswa dengan teman itu hal yang buruk. Bahkan kalau boleh saya bilang, orang yang suka memendam informasi beasiswa sendiri adalah orang yang serakah, pelit dan pengecut! Bisa saja kan, teman kita itu memang benar-benar ingin dan butuh beasiswa itu. Dan mungkin, siapa tau, sosok teman kita itulah yang memang dicari oleh badan penyelenggara beasiswa yang bersangkutan.

Dengan berbagi informasi beasiswa pada teman-teman, mungkin bisa jadi tambahan amunisi untuk semakin semangat berjuang dalam memperoleh beasiswa. Kenapa? Karena kita berjuang bersama-sama dan tentunya gak sendirian. Makin bagus kan kalau seandainya kita dan teman-teman sama-sama dapet beasiswa yang diinginkan!

Kemudian, gak perlu takut kalah dengan teman. Selama di bersekolah SMA saya yang sekarang, saya banyak belajar bahwa bersaing dengan teman itu memang perlu. Tapi.... bersainglah SECARA SEHAT dan FAIR. Percaya diri aja kalau kemampuan kita bisa lebih baik dari dia dan berjuang melakukan yang terbaik. Tapi, kalaupun pada akhirnya kamu harus "kalah", ya terima saja. Akui bahwa temanmu lebih baik daripada kamu. Sebagai teman, kita juga harus bisa tersenyum dan mendukung keberhasilannya. Kalau seorang teman kita sukses, kan kita juga yang senang. Bahkan kita bisa pamer dengan bangga kepada orang lain, lho!

Kita udah berbagi informasi dengan teman tentang beasiswa nih. Lalu, bagaimana kalau malah teman kalian yang dapet beasiswa? Tidak perlu iri, teman! Ini memang susah sih ya untuk dilakukan. Jujur saya sering merasa iri dengan teman-teman yang berhasil mendapatkan beasiswa untuk pergi ke luar negeri. Tapi, seiring berjalannya waktu. Saya sadar. Tuhan pasti punya rencana terbaik buat setiap anak-Nya. Dan rencana Tuhan itu akan indah pada waktunya. Selain itu, yang terpenting : kalau emang udah rezeki kita, ya gak bakal ke mana. Percaya deh! Sama aja kayak jodoh :) Kalau emang udah rezeki kita dan tentunya rencana Tuhan buat kita dapetin beasiswa itu, pastilah beasiswa itu di tangan!

Never give up ^^

Jadi intinya... tetap berbagi dengan teman ya :) Jangan gampang iri dengan keberhasilan orang lain, kalau udah rezeki ga bakal kemana! Tetap percaya diri dan semangat melakukan yang terbaik! Pasti kita bisa dapetin beasiswa :D

"Ia membuat segala sesuatu indah pada waktunya, bahkan Ia memberikan kekekalan dalam hati mereka. Tetapi manusia tidak dapat menyelami pekerjaan yang dilakukan Allah dari awal sampai akhir." - Pengkhotbah 3 : 11

What's Going On, Johnny's Ent?

2011-06-29T21:45:00.011+07:00

Well, I don't know what's going on with Johnnys lately. That company has been cursed, no? Just asking xD

First, Ryutaro's issue (6/28/2011)

Yesterday (after almost a day without Internet), I almost got a slight heart attack after knowing the news from my Twitter's timeline that Morimoto Ryutaro (Hey! Say! JUMP) caught smoking in a photo. Unfortunately, he's UNDERAGE. He's only 16 and the youngest in JUMP. At that time, I was like : "What the hell are you doing, Ryutaro? Are you stupid?" So, yesterday I was reading all the timeline tweets all day long. I also read tokyohive.com and arama@LJ for more information.

So, Ryutaro smokes. He has been smoking for a while. The photos (from Shukan Josei's magazine) show him smoking at the age of 14 or 15 --> hmm, that's why he has a low voice. Well yeah, for the case like this, I have to say that Ryutaro is at fault. He couldn't blame no one, but himself. And now he has to face the consequence : suspended indefinitely from all JUMP's activities. For your information, after a Johnny's got suspended, usually it takes time to make him come back to his group. It will be very hard to come back to the spotlight .____. In other words, probably suspended means soft warning before he will be kicked out from Johnny's? I don't have any idea :(

I know, teenagers who start smoking at a young age may escalate in recent years, but as AN IDOL, Ryutaro needs to open his eyes. He's an idol and he has a very big responsible to be a good example for other people, especially for those who adore him. You guys might not want people to say things like this : "You idolized a guy who smoke...?" That's why, I'M AGAINST PEOPLE WHO SMOKE. I HATE SMOKERS.

Before Ryutaro, there were also Uchi & Kusano who caught drinking underage. They were 18 at that time. Uchi got back to be Junior and Kusano got back to be a trainee. And after a while, Kusano left Johnny's and until now Uchi didn't back either for NewS or Kanjani8 -____- And that will be happen to Ryutaro too. Ryutaro might not learn from his two senpai and now history repeats itself :( Poor boy. I just think he's not lucky. According to the source I've read, about 7 out of 10 member of JUMP has been smoking underage.

How on earth he could be so careless / reckless/ stupid? Life will never be the same for Ryutaro. He ended up his career on entertainment just because of smoking. How ridiculous is that. He has to face the consequence : an indefinite suspended. Be it only for 5 months, be it forever. I don't care anymore about him *sorry Ryutaro's fans* It's his own fault.

Now, HSJ is only a group with 9 people -_____- Lucky, Ryutaro is not my favorite in JUMP. Ryutaro even don't get my attention in every performance with JUMP. I myself have to say that it's not a big deal if Ryutaro kicked out from the group. There are so many choices : Johnny's can add Yuma to replace Ryutaro, right? In my opinion, it's the best choice so far. Moreover, NYC has been always together with JUMP (eg : in a concert).

What I learn from Ryutaro's issue :
- Ryutaro has a pretty baby face you know. Who knows a cute boy like him would do such a bad thing like smoking while he's underage? Briefly, don't judge people by his/her looking. Pretty face doesn't mean he/she also good inside. Take that.

- More importantly, please: DON'T SMOKE. Be it you are underage or not. It's TOTALLY NOT GOOD for your health. Towards other people, smokers might be a killer! So, I don't like people who smoke. They are better go to hell! Even if you are a good-looking person but if you're smoking, you look very very very ugly for me!

P.S : Ryutaro, SMOKING DOESN'T MAKE YOU COOL.

Second, our miracle boy's issue (6/29/2011)

Masaki Aiba (Arashi) was hospitalised due to left spontaneous pneumothorax. And the doctor diagnosed that it needs one week hospitalised. OMG .____. Again, it was a shock for me. After Ryutaro, now Aiba. All of these makes me wonder : "What on earth is happen with Johnny's Entertainment?" Too many bad news from this agency in a very short gap of time.

Back to Aiba's. Probably, it was the effect due to previous operation (Aiba once hospitalized in 2002 due to pneumothorax too). Plus, he and Arashi have been work very hard. On June 24-26, they held a charity concert called "Waku Waku Gakkou" in Tokyo Dome. That must be very tiring yet restless for them.

For those who have never heard what pneumothorax is :

- Pneumothorax basically refers to air in the pleural space, which is the tiny space between your lungs and the inside of your chest wall.
- It results from the rupture of small sub-pleural blebs (in other words, air blisters).
- The lung collapses when air enters that space, because what keeps it open and expanding is the tension between the surface of the lung and the chest wall (for a quick and easy analogy, imagine putting a glass on a small puddle of water on your table and moving it about a bit before trying to lift it up-- it would most likely feel like something is tugging at the glass and making it difficult to lift).
- The lung does not collapse entirely.
- Spontaneous pnemothorax mainly occurs in tall, thin men ages 20-40 years without any underlying disease factors. That means there's usually no reason as to why someone would get spontaneous pneumothorax (as suggested by the name itself).
- It is true that people who have had it once have an increased risk of a recurrence; another risk factor is cigarette smoking.
- The week long stay is probably just to keep him in the hospital for observation to see if the air in the pleural space will be absorbed by the blood stream, or try to reinflate the lung by non-surgical means.
- If the lung collapse is greater than 15-25%, they will put a chest tube in to suction the air and any accumulating fluids out. They do sometimes do surgical procedures for recurrent pneumothorax, but as his last case happened in 2002, it might not be of concern enough for them.

Credits : arashi_on@lj

I hope Aiba's condition is not too serious and he can recover soon. GET WELL SOON OUR MIRACLE BOY~~ Don't work too hard or think too much about your work and stuffs, people around you especially your FOUR BROTHERS and the Arashians top priority is your health :) I will miss your hyperness! Arashi, please take care of Aiba-chan!

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